DAYDREAMING

〰️ JENNY 〰️

I thought I was done and over with this, why can't I have my freedom even if it's just for few minutes,gosh. l looked closely at the medicine in my hand and cursed silently at it,as if it's the root of all my problems. if only inanimate objects had feelings,it would have been much better,at least I'll have something to vent all my anger and frustrations on. I eventually took the drug with a glass of orange juice but it still tasted horrible that i felt like throwing up.

"Is my pumpkin alright". I turned to the direction of the voice,it was my Dad and of course he is the only one in the entire world that calls me pumpkin.

"Hey Dad, come on in". I gestured with my hand respectfully. He tip toed in a very funny way that brought an unexpected smile to my grumpy looking face.

"Dad you don't have to be dramatic all the time". I laughed heartily.

"You are obviously in a very sad mood,are you okay dear". Instead of answering his question,i stared at him with a grateful heart, despite the fact that there are a lot of things taking a toll on both my physical and mental health lately,i always consider myself very lucky for having such an amazing Dad, i certainly do not deserve him.

"You have been spacing out quite a lot lately,is there anything you think I should know about, is college stressing you out , hmm tell me okay,am all ears".

"Yes Dad,am really stressed out, being a college student is way harder than I thought,then this stupid and annoying sickness of mine that won't let me have fun and enjoy my life just like every other normal person out there,am loosing myself every single day Dad, i just want to rest". I wanted to pour out my heart to him like never before, but the fear of making him worry more than he already is held me back, all the things I wanted to say to him were all in my head battling for freedom.

"Am okay Daddy, don't worry about me". was all i said after a very long silence."Are you sure dear" He was genuinely worried about me, l could see it in his eyes. I smile wearily and held his hands in mine.

"Am perfectly fine,am just hungry, that's all". My Dad sighed and then smiled nodding his head.

"Dr Anthony Mavis called yesterday, when was the last time you visited him". That's one question i feared he might ask and honestly i didn't know what to say cause I can't even remember the last time I paid that man a visit.

" Honey, you have to take this thing seriously,it will help....

"I will go and see him this evening" i said cutting him off.

" I think Mum is back,let me go and see her". I added suddenly, leaving him behind. When I got downstairs i was surprised to see her back caused i used her as an excuse to escape from Dad and it worked.

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Karen glared viciously at Jenny as she made her way towards her, Jenny noticed but kept on walking towards her " I didn't expect you'd be back so early mum" She said reaching for the bags of groceries. Karen took few steps backwards causing Jenny to stop in her tracks.

"I met your faculty professor at the supermarket and the things he told me about you were completely unimaginable, what is wrong with you Jenny, have you lost it already huh! , answer me". Jenny was rather shocked at the sudden outburst, she wondered what Mr Mark told her to warrant such a reaction." Mum calm down okay,at least let's get these stuffs to the kitchen first". Karen dropped the bags violently causing the items inside to scatter all over the place"So you have been skipping lectures, partying with your friends, going out with all kinds of boys and you simply don't care if your grades drops, what am I even saying,he stated that your grades has dropped drastically, is that how you what to live your life,do you think that if I had lived my life the way i wanted,i would find myself in this position today". Karen kept ranting.

〰️ JENNY 〰️

I watched my Mum spout what ever that comes to her mind, part of me was hurt and the other was neutral,i mean i don't really have a good relationship with my mum so I don't really expect much from her. I tried to calm my nerves before saying anything cause both of us can't be angry,i looked up and saw my Dad coming downstairs,he had probably heard Mum yelling.

"what's going on here, why all the noise". He asked looking at my Mum who suddenly went mute the moment she sighted him. " I was just scolding her for not being extra careful with the groceries, look at mess she made". I smiled, that's what she's good at, covering up the real situation,i really don't know what she's afraid of, maybe Dad would support his daughter like he always does or she knows deep down that what she is saying is not entirely the truth." You don't have to be so loud about it, she actually came to help you out, Pumpkin pick up the groceries and make sure you put them away okay". I gave him a slight nod then he walked straight to the sitting room but Mum was still standing there looking down on me as i picked the items one at a time, she crouched down to my level and whispered into my ears."This is not over yet". were the words she said before walking away. I took a deep breath and thank the heavens that the whole charade is temporarily over, picking up the grocery bags,i headed straight to the kitchen.