Regret

"I was foolish to believe that he loved me"

"Dumb to hope for the life with him in the future"

"I never got the love i wanted"

"For he only gave me torture"

I feel numb because that is how it works in here. The room in which iam trapped in is pitch black. Not a soul in sight which is weird because I heard that there was an entire city constructed in hell but after hearing the screams of the people who are actually in hell i have no idea about where iam because this place is one hundred percent not hell. Stories of heaven and hell were told by the old people to the little kids and according to those stories the good souls went into heaven while the bad souls belonged to hell. There was never a story about a black room. Iam unable to speak but i can hear my thoughts and its not only me who can hear my thoughts that sound loud in the silence which has possessed the room. There are voices,two female voices. Voices which are not unknown to me. Sometimes they talk with me and also give me a great company.

(Sighs)

Those voices also told me something which i didn't want to believe but ofcourse how long could i run away from the hurtful truth. At first i heard laughs. Laughs which i recognized quickly. The laughs were of Leo and if that wasn't strange enough they said to me

"He killed you. He killed you again" The voices were crying painfully and i couldn't comfort them. They never had any relation with me then why were they crying so much?.

"He suceeded again" The voice which was deeper than the other said

Atleast those voices were someone who moarned for me. It all came into sense when i heard that barely audible voice.

"I never loved her.I loved her WEALTH and her POWER.I wanted her LUXURY and naive was her father who even fell in my trap" With that faint voice i heard Leo's chuckles.

I wanted to curse at myself. Wanted to hit myself but i couldn't and even if i did i wouldn't feel any pain. People have been through many devastating and tragic events in their lives but being killed by the person who you thought loved you more than anyone else. If that isn't tragic then i don't know what is. I wanted to cry,scream and shout but all was of no use.I have heard the screams of the people who were in hell but still haven't had a glimpse of heaven and its beauty. Maybe i wasn't such a good soul or maybe it is because i made my father sad?.Oh god i wish to say sorry to him as i can imagine him crying his heart out on my grave. I was his princess and he only wanted what was best for me but i didn't listen to him and these are probably the consequences.

I don't know if its been days,months or years to my death but slowly iam starting to feel something. Something which is just coldness. My mother was a very kind lady and she is probably in heaven enjoying herself while her daughter is stuck here forever.

"You should know the meaning of the word" The squeaky voice said

"I already know its meaning. Forever meaning that nobody is going to stay with someone at any place for eternity. They all have to die one day" I thought the answer which the voice was able to hear

"Maybe they will live" the voice said and didn't say anything else letting silence be the ruler of the place once again.