Prologue

"Ahh!!!"

"Ranny!!, Ranny are you okay ranny?"

"mommy am s.c.a.r.e.d"

"Come on baby don't be scared okay am here, am here baby don't cry"!

All my life I have been living in fear, but I don't know what am afraid of. All I know is that this is not me, it can't be me. They all say I am sick, but I know it's not that. Even the doctors I have all met said the same now everyone thinks am faking it and there I am again crying behind the bathroom door, holding a sharp knife on my stomach ready to end it all but then I can't those voices shouting for help, begging me to save them I can't just ignore it. I feel alone but I also know am not. There is a presence I feel and sometimes I call to it but no reply. It's like it's there but also not there. Maybe they are right maybe l am just faking everything without knowing but is that even possible. Let's say it is true but how come I can read your mind, know your past, see a little of your future?. I feel like am going crazy I want to tell someone but they all just don't believe me. This is my story, the story about how I found who I really was.