I think I'm starting to understand why Castiel has so many secrets and opts to keep quiet about them. The figure watching me, I know who it was. I've felt that presence before, it's Castiel's father, 'Luci', she had called him, even though I'm almost certain that it was just one of her many lies.
I could end this secrecy, I really could, I asked Dean, my private investigator, to obtain information about Castiel before, and then regretted it and asked him to destroy those same evidences but it would only take a matter of minutes for him to get me that information back, especially since the research was already done.
It was a temptation, it really was.