August 2012

My brother/ cousin Brandon was preparing to leave for the Army and I couldn't be more proud of him. I was so happy that he would be out seeing the world and do things he enjoyed. Growing up Brandon wasn't afraid of anything and he was definitely one of my family members that I can honestly say I would give my life to save his life. Yes, we have had our ups and downs but it only made our bond stronger over time. Even though I was happy for him I was broken inside because I knew it meant I wouldn't see him as much anymore. I worried I would never see him again because things happen when you get into the Army beyond our control and I see so many people lose loved ones overseas. Although we are first cousins you can't tell us we are not brother and sister, I mean we are both Pisces and his birthday is March 11th so now as adults we celebrate together when we can. I know what you may be thinking and no it doesn't mean I'm not close to my siblings it just means that me and him have developed a bond and it's unbreakable. often times I would video call Brandon and he would show me the foreign money and we would laugh and talk and that gave me a sense of peace because apart of me knew that no matter what he was going through he always smiled and never showed weakness. After Brandon left I felt alone so I would allow myself to get close to people just to have friends even though I knew I didn't need friends I just had a empty space I was trying to fill until I met the man I would soon marry .