5

Belle's Point of View

"I can't even look into your eyes, Dad," I said staring at the dark sky

Everyday Moon and Stars comforts me but tonight? It can't comfort my anger towards Dad. I crossed my arms, I looked at him directly into his eyes

"You said Mom died peacefully. I lived for 18 years knowing that. I...I-i" My heart is aching so much for Mom

"Daddy!!!!" I shout

"You cheated on Mom!!" I shout again

"I know I did something horrible to your Mom, Belle. Please forgive me" He cried

Tears began to flow in my eyes

I saw Mama Isabella on the sliding door and she was looking at us

"You son of a bitch!!" I shout and run towards her but Dad holds my hand tightly so that he can stop me

"What's happening?" She asks

"You know why Izrael is a special child? Because it's your karma!!!" I shout while my tears are still pouring like rain

She slapped me twice

"Don't you dare say that to me" She said

I tried to remove Daddy's hand from my arm and then went straight into my room and took a jacket. I left them there, as I was running downstairs I heard them calling my name

I saw Charles's worried eyes but I continue running outside. When I go out I run, and run, and run until there's no house or anything just the small park. I sat down to one of the benches and hugged my knees

The pain is not bearable this time. I can't imagine Mom's mental health, carrying a grudge against Dad while I'm in her womb

Is Dad even know she has cancer that time or did he just know when she died? While I'm crying I heard a bark of a puppy I saw a cute husky beneath the bench I'm sitting on. I lift up the puppy and put it on my lap, the puppy was "she". She wiggles her tail and barked at me

"Are you lost?" She licks the tears on my cheeks

"Thank you" She barked again

I looked around but no one is looking for her. It's cold outside, I think it's already 9 PM.

"I think I'm going to keep you for a while, there's no one looking for you. I'm going to take you home I know you're hungry" She barked

I stood up and lift her up, while walking back to the house I saw Charles running towards me. He immediately hugged me when he reached my place

"You might squeeze the puppy," I said and he quickly let go

"Where did you get that?" He asks

"I think she's lost," I said

"Let's go home, your Dad is worried about you. He said that if I can't find you I'll be dead tonight" The Anger and Pain I was feeling faded away

When we reached the house I heard Daddy and Mama fighting. When I entered the house they quickly stop talking

"Nana Amy, do we have rice and viands?" I ask

"Of course, are you hungry?" She asks

"The puppy is hungry," I said and slowly walked toward Aunt Amelia

"Belle, where did you get that dog? It may have rabies put that down" I heard Dad

"Mind your own business" Right now all I cared is about the puppy and Mom

"Belle..." I continue walking to the kitchen

He's my father but I hate him, he even picks a girl with the closest name to Belinda. Did he get a Deja vu? The puppy is so hungry and in 5 minutes she finished the foods I gave her

I can feel them staring at me but I just ignore them. When the puppy finished eating, I gave her water, why did I even think about having a dog? She can be my home

I lift up the dog and walked towards the staircase and go upstairs. Before going inside my room, I reached the side table and get the keys in my room so that no one can go to my room. I entered my room and locked the door, it was already 11 PM. I put down the puppy and she starts roaming around

Even death will not forgive Dad.

I lay down and stare at the ceiling and take a deep breath. It's too much for me to process, I have stage 3 cancer, Dad cheated on Mom before she died. If finding the whole truth is a crime? I'll be dead right now

I heard my phone ringing to I reached for it and saw that Leah is calling, I answered the video call

"Dad cheated on Mom," I said and she looked at me surprised

[Tita Isabelle?] She asks

"No, my biological Mom"

[Oh!]

"I hate Dad"

[Maybe he has a reason]

"He's drunk that's what he told me"

[Belle, your time is short. Forgive Uncle]

"Mom carrying me in her womb while she's suffering from cancer and depression. Imagine that?"

[Belle, please do you want to die with anger in your heart?]

"You know what, Leah? I thought you would understand why I'm angry with Dad. I thought you have my side. Leah of all people, you're the one I thought would understand the situation I have"

[Belle]

"No! You just say that I should forgive Dad because he cheated and it's because he's drunk"

[I never said that]

"Whatever"

I hang up the call and stare at the ceiling again. Who's going to listen to my rants? Who's going to ask if I'm okay? The puppy barked at me so I lift her up and let her sleep in my bed. My room's theme was black and gray, even the curtains were black so if you turn off the light my room will going to be pure black

I stood up and walked towards the sliding door and the cold wind hugged me. I looked at the sky and there were no stars anymore, I forgot that I have a fever. I touched my forehead and I'm burning.

The truth is, we try so hard to save the people we love that we barely have time to save ourselves. -r. m. Drake

Mom saves my life instead of her life.

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