It's been a month since I ended things with Andre. I feel peace getting back my independence. I left the company so Andre can have a space for him to work without drama. I'm doing a project with Jerry. We are shooting a movie right now I'm excited on how this movie will turn out, I had written a good story for this but today I'm too lazy to get up, I'm still groogy and yet I didn't drink last night. This is so not me.In this case I will be late today. I feel like I'm having a hang over I ran towards the toilet my stomach is killing me. What's happening to me? Am I sick or am I something else. I went out to buy the test I needed to clear out my doubt. I don't know what I'm feeling right now. I hope I'm not pregnant I just declined Andre's proposal we can just go back like that. I sat down the toilet bowl and catch some pee for the test. With in seconds my question has been answered. I'm confused of my feelings I'm surely don't want to be pregnant with my ex, but unexpectedly I'm happy. I'm going to be a mom. I want to tell everybody about it. But I should not I will tell Jerry first then Drake maybe Andre. Sure Mom and Dad will be so excited about this as well. They're going to be grand parents soon. I can't believe how happy I am. I can't paint my face straight I'm so happy. Jerry is the first one to know. He is happy for me. His eyes are teary to know I'm going to be a Mom. I told him to keep it for himself for the meantime though I'm sure he would tell his Mommy Rose this matter right away. I'm close to Mommy Rose so she would be happy to know as well. I just don't want Andre to know from others I want to tell him myself.
One afternoon Jerry asked me do go shopping with him. We went to a baby shop to the mall closeby. It's so fun to pick baby stuff even though we don't know the gender yet, we happily picked some stuff for both genders. I can't imagine how Jerry is fine coming with me shopping baby stuff but he looks more excited than me. I thought I saw Andre somewhere he wasn't there when I looked again. I was just my imagination maybe. I was so tired shopping. I told myself to tellDrake and Andre about the good news tomorrow. It's unfair to keep this good news for myself.