.I'm feeling it.

5pm after school

I'm feeling it. I really am feeling it. Home-sick or home-sick either is a good description of how I'm feeling. Everything at school is just stressing me out, all the stares and looks and everything about that girl. Her name is Daisy, by the way. Innocent.

I couldn't come to terms with what she said to me. I definatly felt that there was an ulterior move to her wanting to be friends with me.

I sat on my bed pondering about my day while I hadn't realised that my sister wasn't at home!!!

I phoned multiple times before someone picked up her phone. Luckily it was her but she said that she wouldn't come home as she was at a sleep over. I told her that it was fine but deep down, I felt restless. I was at home, alone, with no one to speak to.

I don't know. I just didn't feel well.

I fell asleep easily that night, deeply. I dreamt about a boy but everything was blurred. I knew it was a nice dream though because I felt comforted when I woke up but when I did, I couldn't really remember what happened in my dream therefore I just forgot about it.

I got ready, put on a pair of brown culottes, grey skin tight turtle neck shirt and a brown trench coat. I paired it with some pearl earrings from mum before she passed away and some white adidas trainers. Not heels!!!

Take a snap and post on Instagram!

Tagged my school etc. you know the drill.

Without looking back at my phone, I turn to the door and leave. I didn't want to deal with all the awkward comments on my feed. I just love taking pictures.

School starts at around 8am and I arrived at 7:30am so with a little time left to spare, I made my way to my class and started with my project. I didn't take notice of my surroundings until it was too late. I had the teacher send me to the headteachers for not paying attention in class. oops.

The rest of the day passed slowly, lectures after lectures, non-stop.

As I was about to leave the school gates to go home, I recieved a message from Daisy saying to meet her in Block 2 of 3 Class 3 asap. This was the Art section of our school/uni. I made my way there, pondering about what she could possibly want.

Once I aririved, the class was empty with just Daisy sitting in the middle. She stood up and made her way towards me. She also asked me if i had checked my post after posting it this morning and i said no. I checked and realised that there was a comment that stood out from them all. It was from the same unknown account saying

"Your eyes."

It kinda creeped me out, but that wasn't what she wanted to show me. It was another unknown account, different from the other account, and this time, it was a hate comment. I felt dissapointed because it wasn't the fact that i had a hate comment, it was what it said.

"You don't belong in this world."

It suddenly reminded me of my parents and how they suddenly dissapeared from this world. it brought a tear to my eye, however I tried to prevent it from falling since there was someone watching me, but it just hurt too much.

I left, and ran away. I ran as fast as I could. Away from this world. Away from myself.