Him - 1

I could feel the anger blowing inside me. It tasted like fire and blood. If my skin contact with any surface in the world, it must have been melted. That's how hot my body is. 

Everything felt numb; ears, eyes, lips, skin, thoughts... I felt like floating. Running and floating. Like these walls, I can crash them in no time. Like these people, I can just slash them in pieces.

Anger built fast.

To be honest, I hate it!

"Where is she? Where is The Crown Princess???!!!" 

The angry tiger unleashed from me. These silences made me feel even more angry. I withdrew my sword and pointed the sharp tip just right in front of the old lad who bowed in front of me, trembling. 

"She... She's left... She just left the chamber, Your Highness..."

"Lie!!!" I slash the man's neck. Everyone was yelling in terror. Those ladies in attendance hug each other and cry.

"Where is she?! WHERE IS MY WIFE?!"

No one dares to answer me. I smirked, cracking my bones. Ready to throw the biggest rampage in history.

May they learn a lesson!

"Wife! I know you're here! You better come out!" again, my sword managed to find the next victim. "... Or I kill them all..." the room filled with cries and screams. 

"She's gone! I swear to my parent's name... She's gone..." an old lady in attendance cried. I think I know her. She's her nanny. She must be the one who hid her!

"Then, I'll kill you all..." I threw an evil smirk. My guards, once I dictated my order, were ready to execute it. Those cries and screams started to get even louder.

"I'm here!" 

Silence.

A lady emerged from a room behind the crowd. Holding something in her embrace. Her gown was bloody. She stood in front of the door, shaking like a fallen leaf.

"There you are... My lovely traitor wife..."

"Let them go. Kill me, but spare their life,"

"Aha.. Noble!"

"They are your people, Your Highness! So please..." she stared at me, begging for mercy. "Let them go. Take me. I'm the one you want. Take me," she said. I'm elated. Seems like my job is easy!

"Guards, take The Princess,"

"No!! Don't, please!!" everyone stopped them from taking their beloved princess. They bound themselves together and made a barrier to protect her.

"Kill them if you have to," those guard yield their swords, and strike anyone who stops them.

"No! Stop! Don't! Please!!"

"Your Highness!!!" they scream as they stay put, trying their best to stop the guards. One of my right men came forward and tossed away several people until he reached the princess. He dragged her by her wrist. Her people yelled and cried their eyes out.

She fell to the ground. Slowly lifted her head and gave me a stare. 

"I should've killed you a long time ago!"

"Your Highness!! Don't!!" I got irritated by the scream. So I asked my guard to shut them down.

"No! Please! Don't do this! Please!! Noo!!" she bawled her eyes out, watching them get killed one after another. I smell the victory.

"You beast!" she stood up and threw a fit. She hit me and scratched my shoulder. I couldn't take it anymore, so I took my dagger and...

She fell on the ground, knees first. As if she surrendered to me. I smirk, feeling amused by the winning. Her body slowly slammed into the floor, but her eyes kept locking with mine.

"Goodbye, my wife..." I withdraw my sword, lifting it so high and...

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"Don't!!!!"

I scream my lungs out, almost jumping from the bed. In the darkness, I can feel my body drenching in sweats. I'm gasping for air, slowly regaining my consciousness. 

My heart feels stuffy. I look at my hands. They were shaking.

"Wifey..." I bury my face between my knees. I cry my eyes out. I know, it's just a dream. But, for me, it's a punishment by God. 

Punishment of the evil man who treated his wife like trash!

I had those dreams since I was 17. A day after my coronation as The Crown Prince. At first, I only saw a glimpse of a woman. I thought maybe this is what Yug said about the wet dream. A phase where a boy evolves into a man. I felt nervous and excited at first.

But, somehow the direction of the dream was... Different.

I started to slap the woman, hard. 

That's when I woke up in shock. I never thought that I could do that. I never slapped anyone in my life, even Yug; who tends to test my patience, not even once I lay my hand on his face like that. It's like I hate her, so much!

I told Yug about the dream. He said, maybe I prefer BDSM stuff. He got a smack on his head that day. There is no way I wanna involve myself in that violent act! Yug told me, it's fine to have some kinky harsh desire like that. It's hot and lustful.

He got his head smacked for the second time.

I didn't even have any intention to tell my parents about this. I think I can handle it by myself. However, days passed by, weeks after weeks, month after month, year after year... Those dreams never stop.

They got even worse, that I needed a doctor's prescription for sleeping pills. But, the more I sleep, the more I get those nightmares. I try to forgo sleep sometimes, so I can skip the dream. 

Until I had enough. And just 'enjoy' it. 

One day, I had a chance to look at the woman's face, close up. I lifted her face while my hand choked her neck. Somehow, I managed to get closer to her. 

That's the first time I saw her face.

She's ethereal, like an angel. Her lips are full and in cupid bow shape. Her eyes are kind of droopy. She has glittery tan skin, which makes her look even more unique. Not many girls from my country look like her. She is indeed as beautiful as ever.

That's when I fell in love with her.

After the eventful day ( or should I say dream?) I can't stop thinking about her. Whenever I had that nightmare, I wish I could be nice to her, even for once. But, that never happened. She always got kicked, slapped, choked, and many more harsh treatments. I tortured her, mentally and physically. Up until the extent where I had rogue sex with another woman with her present and forced her to watch before I raped her.

From there, I developed hatred toward myself. I tended to self-inflict, even cutting ties with other people. I refuse to date anyone, afraid that I might hurt the person so badly! I was so in a mess! I didn't go out in public at all.

Those nightmares take a toll on my daily life as The Crown Prince. I tend to unleash my anger out of nowhere, sometimes even asking for a fight with some random people. I was too young to even control the trauma that I had. I almost neglect my duty as The Crown Prince.

Yug is the one who noticed how I changed a lot. He dared to ask me about my problem, he forced me to open up and talk about it. He cares so much about me. Being my best friend and also my cousin, he is the only one that I can rely on.

Finally, one day, when we were on a trip to Thailand, I had another episode. Luckily, I shared a room with Yug. I was in a state of losing my life because of the sleep deprivation. That night was the final straw for me.

With some persuasion from Yug, I agreed to meet a fortune teller during the trip. We met a Thai fortune teller. She explained the whole scenario based on my dream and fortune reading.

She told me, I'm the reincarnation of a prince or a man who was abusive towards his wife. The most shocking part is, that this is the 4th time I've been reincarnated. My previous lives were almost the same. I asked her if the woman was my wife in one of those reincarnation.

She said the woman was my one and only wife for three consecutive times. I never married someone aside from her. And each time, I treat her so badly.

Even killed her... Thrice.

I did ask for a reason why my life seems to rotate in a loop. She said, maybe because both of us had some unfinished business. The soul of the woman was full of vengeance. But, sadly she never had a chance to take up revenge against me. That's why we keep on reincarnating.

But she did tell me one crucial piece. She said this life is the final life of our reincarnation. It seemed like the course changed. But she said she doesn't know what or how. However, she did tell me that this version of me is the best compared to the past. And if possible, I can cut the loop that binds me all this time.

But... How?

I decided to look for the woman once again. Me and Yug were searching up and down for her. But, it's useless as there is no such woman who fits the criteria in my country. I almost gave up and just accepted my destiny when one day, my father brought a picture of a lady that The Royal Board picked, as my future wife of mine.

I took the picture from the office and came to shock.

My fiancee is her.