My Youth Should Be Better than Having to Play Music- Chapter 1 [The Unspeakable Feeling]

I heard noise in the class. As I was about to take out a book and read, the whole class went silent.

"Who is that guy?" Someone muttered. I did not know who that person is. I did not even dare to look away from my book.

"Isn't he...?" That person continued, confused. At the second thought, it was a familiar voice. I was drenched in sweat, trying really hard not to get distracted. How should I face this? What could I do? What will happen if I were to ignore the person?

I could not help it but glanced at that person. His face was full of curiosity. He tilted his head, looking at a different angle, trying his best to focus on my appearance. He looks familiar, just the face. But his hair was different.

"You are...you are...you are..." he muttered again.

"Don't worry, I heard you. My name's Sam," I introduced myself, again, as I closed the book that I was reading. He went closer to me, taking a good, long look to familiarise my face.

"Oh it's you! You were here this whole time?" I was surprised. Seeing my childhood friend, I wondered. Has he forgotten me or something? And wait, why were the students in the class gone silent?

"Isn't that the 'hot' guy you were talking about recently?" I overheard it again. This time, the voices of some girls behind my back. Why suddenly 'hot' guy?

"Max?" I called my childhood friend out.

"Yes? Can I help you?" He answered. The way he answered, he felt irritated for a second.

"Are you okay? What is wrong with this class?" I asked. He was speechless. In fact, I thought that he was not even listening to me, distracted. Something was fishy.

"Oh it's nothing really, and hey, nice to meet you again man," I starred at him. So he finally answered one of my questions, but in a disturbing manner.

"No, i mean we met at the foodcourt recently. Is something really wrong? You can tell me and I will do my best to help you," It was really strange. I did not know what really was going on either.

"Tsk, I need to take some air, leave me alone," he said. Here I was waiting for him to answer my question and he just walked away. I looked back and I saw the girls trying to bound me and questions came out from their loudmouths. I was overwhelmed by my new weird classmates. I was wondering what it could be that made them looked at me with their fixed eyes, focusing on only one object, me.

Was it because I changed my hairstyle? Could it be that I had lost some weight and looked fitter? Did my body image attract girls? No, I could not just think of things that are inappropriate. I ran and searched for Max with my school uniform shirt. I hoped that I could find Max. I ran as fast as I could. Although I was sweating in my uniform, I kept running. The girls? I left, telling them i had something urgent to do.

"What do you want now?" I heard his voice as I ran down the staircase and saw him sitting on the stairs. He knew that I was going to find him. I gave him a despised look. I did not expect him to be like this. This should be his fault for being childish, or did I misunderstood the situation there?

"Tell me, what happened to you?" I asked once more.

"You see that goddess? She suits you the best." As soon as Max pointed out, I saw a silky, white hair, kind of a smooth white skinned, sparkling yellow eyes, with lips that are developed nicely as if it was meant for the 'chosen' one, calmed eye brows, long fingers and well body-shaped. Her eyes really looked like a goddess's. When I saw her, it felt like I have been looking at her for a thousand years in the afterlife. However, now is reality, life that must be carried on. Wait, why did Max pointed her out anyway? A goddess? That is true I will say. As if I am going to fall for her. I am still too young to have a partner in my life now.

Max waved his big fat hand infront of my face and I snapped from the world full of wonder. He gave me a smirk look on his face, thinking that I am some kind of a pervert looking at the woman.

"Um, you're getting the wrong idea here! I wasn't really going to..." Before I could finish my sentence, Max interrupted.

"If you're not going to, I will - you know, ask her out...something like that," that was what Max had said. It annoyed me.

"As if. If you think she is worthy for a man like you, try then, I won't even care," I threw back my words at him. This is really unexpected. How did it come to this? What were we talking about again? Max is just too good to be off-topic. Forget it then, my heart spoke. Max, all of a sudden, stood up and patted my shoulder.

"Take her before it's too late." He whispered to my ears and went back up to our class. I know that she is in the same class as me. Before I knew it, my heart raced. I would not like it to be this way.

I would not want her to be taken away by anyone else. I did not want to lose her. I did not want her to be taken away from me! And so I dashed to the general office, the pathway where that girl took. I was so close to reaching her. My breath. My lungs. I was catching my breath, I was breathless all of a sudden. I managed to grab her hand.

It is so soft. Softer than a pillow you used to hug with. Warm and smooth, but i can tell that my hand is warmer than hers. Her hair was long. Reached her waist. She is 173 metres tall. Average for a teenager. I managed to grab her. Not intentionally to harass her, but in a form of a calling. She turned around. Suddenly, all around me slowed down, as if time has really slowed down. I did not know what the cause is. The moment she looked at me, I looked at her, telling her that I managed to find her. The moment I grab her hands tightly, unwilling to let it go, there was a terrorist attack. I was not aware of the situation because my mind went blank after that.

It was too late. The girl that I wished to be with for the rest of my life, had been killed. It took me that much effort to see her face. Her face was really nice and pure. As pure as a diamond. As precious as a gold.

As I was about to cry and shout, yell and scream, a bullet pierced through my heart. I could feel nothing. My body went numb. This way I could not even feel her hands anymore. I felt like I am losing her.

My hand slipped as I tried to grab her hand once again. I could not reach her fingers. It was like as if she is leaving me, I just could not grab her. This is the most stupidity death I had ever faced. Getting killed by some random terrorists. I told myself.

"I'm glad i get to hold your hand. If we could survive this, I really wished we could be together until we die," I mumbled. These were my last words, hoping that she can hear it with all her heart, although that is impossible. With my last words, this was my final breath. It is the end of my life. What a stupid way to die. This reminds me of a game called 'dumb ways to die'.

Maybe this really is my fate. I should just accept it. Oh wait, what about Max? Did he managed to survive? I did not know. I would not want to know either. I just want to give up in my life. Anyways, I died at the wrong timing.

Who killed her specifically? I will really kill the person who killed her. He really needs to be punished. I could not take it with this nonsense terrorism.

What will I be reincarnated into after this? A bug? No. A tiger? No. Not at all, I just wished I had a second chance, but it was too late. It was all too late.

All was black at first. Then a small ray of light. Really bright as if it is brighter than the sun. I squinted my eyes. What is this light? I felt a floor. I took a long stroll walk, wondering where I am. As soon as I walk, the light became brighter. I could not stand it. I ran towards the light, and stepped into the unknown world full of wonder. I can see now. All the things around me, and myself.

"Wait a minute, WHAT?!" My jaws dropped. I was shocked, clueless, lost. Like a bug in a lake. My body. My body is different. My hair is longer now. I had a dyed brunette hair. I was frustrated with this and I had enough of this. I checked the lower part of my body. I fell to the ground and I was all gloomy, weak and wanted to cry. I did not know whether I should cry or laugh. I was reincarnated as a teenage girl with a beautiful voice. I tested my voice again, as expected, I am a girl now. I wished to have a good afterlife and this is what I became? Come on! I told myself. So, I really became a girl. A chick that was reincarnated from being a boy to a girl. And so, this is my afterlife.

Having a medium-sized breast, probably going through puberty, broad waist and matured-looking teenage. My mind popped. I could not remember a single thing I did before I was dead. I lost my memories. All of them. Even the slightest moment when it was my last breath. I could not remember who I was. I could not remember why I was here.

As time passes by, my memories kept disappearing. I kept forgetting my memories, even though I treasured them. Where am I? Why am I here? Who am I? What is this place?

The world around me is full of entertainment. Music being played everywhere. It was so loud. How did the people endure the noise? It was too loud I could not even hear my own voice. I had to cover my ears.

I looked everywhere, finding a trusted person to look for help. This time, the way I speak, is different from how I spoke before I even came to this 'sacred' place. I saw a little girl, wearing a sweater that was labelled 'NEKO'. She has short hair, dark grey coloured. Somehow, she has dyed pink coloured hair. It is not that obvious. I went towards her.

"Um, excuse me," I did not meant to interrupt her in her own music. She was wearing her headset. I went closer to her face. Her eyes caught me.

"Ahh! Wh-who are you?" She asked. Her face was red. Probably nervous to see my face. She was stunned at first, and then she starred at my face. Her sparking, twinkling eyes was staring at my hair.

"Woah, your eyes, your hair. You are just like a goddess," she sniffed.

"What are you doing?" I was in embarrassment. Why is this little girl suddenly went closer to me? I went to step back. I could not take the pressure. Why am I feeling like this?

"Oh sorry, I was startled to see a hot beautiful woman infront of my face. Talk about a miracle," she added. Wait, miracle? Does she mean that I am pretty? What is this?

"Um, actually..." I paused. "Actually, I don't know who I am. Can you tell me who I am, why I am here and where is this place?" I continued. She was confused. After seconds had passed, she burst into laughter. She had tears in her eyes.

"Why are you asking me this?" She asked.

"I was dead and here I am. I did not know who I am, where and why am I in this place?" I asked again.

"Okay," she finally started. "Actually, we are currently in Node 3 and most of these people you see here are deejays. Well, of course I'm one of them but I work in the Cytus Community Industry, also known as CCI. So I am a deejay for work, some sort of an engagement work." She explained.

I was surprised with this world. Wait, Node 3? Cytus? What do they mean? Is it a city? A company?

"Well, there are 8 nodes. Nodes are like cities for the modern civilisation. Us? We are at the stage of the future. This is normal for us. Node 1 is the smallest city, while Node 8 is the largest city. Since we are in Node 3, we are the third smallest city in fact," she explained further. Full of information. "But I guess this is no pain at all since I'm used to this, hehe!" She giggled.

She is cute. It makes me want to stretch out her cheek. She is just so chubby and cute. Moreover, she is just a little girl. What is her name? I have never thought of it.

"Hello? I'm not a little girl okay? I'm 15 this year and I'm 162 metres tall. Please don't look down on me. You don't even know who you are don't-cha?" She heard me. I spoke too loud. That was my guess. I looked down. Not on her but on the floor.

"My name's Asakura Neko," she introduced.

"Then, Asakura-san?" I called her name. My accent had changed ever since I was here. I really sounded like a random Japanese manga character.

"No, just call me Neko," she suggested. "Mmm...your name," She thought deeply. "Ah! Aroma-chan?"

"Wait, why '-chan'?" I asked. "Why Aroma-chan?" I rephrased my question.

"Mmm, because you smelt too good that your aroma is really nice. Really smelt nice, hehe," the air was not thin.

There was a breeze coming through and my hair wavered continuously. My eyes widened, I have never felt this moment before. Someone whom I just knew today just complemented me on my appearance. My heart felt light. Lighter than a feather.

"You are just pretty like a goddess," Neko's words lifted up my heart. She looked at me. She was glad to get to know me. Well, she wanted to be my close friend, more like sisters. Her smile was the greatest pure smile I had ever seen. It makes me want to treasure that moment. I took both her hands and cling on them.

"Yes, it's good to know you, let's be close friends, like sisters," I accepted Neko. Both of us were cheerful after that. Even though I had lost my past memories, I will still make new ones with Neko. Neko is my first friend.