Entry 4: How I Dream

[March 7, 2021]

So I didn't dream again. Obviously.

So the reason I dream like I do is that I'm a lucid dreamer. At least I'm pretty sure I'm at least a semi-lucid dreamer.

I say semi because I can only control the dream when I'm in a half-awake half-asleep mode. It's where I'm awake and aware that I'm dreaming, but I force myself to continue dreaming.

The problem with this is that the dream usually gets more chaotic as I tried to change it more and more. Then the dream just completely ends and I just fully wake up.

Sometimes if I'm lucky, I go back to dreaming and fall asleep again. This is what happened with this zombie dream.

Usually, I get to control the dream when I'm about to wake up or when I get really scared. The controlling for the first one makes the dream end quicker and I become more awake.

The second one has two endings. The first is where I tried to run away from the thing that scares me usually by teleporting. Because I just get that ability.

I actually get the teleporting ability when the dream is outside in a huge area. Sometimes I still get it indoors. I basically select a place with my mind and instantly teleport. I get phasing ability when I'm trapped in a small place. Like the wardrobe in the zombie dream.

It's sort of dumb to get scared by that, but when I'm dreaming, I'll think that the dream is the real world. So it'll be like I'll really die.

... Silly really.

Anyways, I got really panicked and subconsciously gave myself the phasing ability. The phasing usually takes some time to power up, before I phase through the small space I'm into another area.

Back to the first ending, the scary thing will slowly catch up to me. I panicked more and more and my heart also beat faster and faster. I could also hear the heartbeat which was just great.

Then I just force myself to wake up since I'm aware that I'm dreaming. Then that's that. I remember the content of the dream for a short while before forgetting about it, though sometimes I remember the dream much more clearly.

Back to the ending, the second ending of 'Scared' is the worst for me. I'll try to run away again. But this time, I don't have the ability to just leave the dream.

I eventually get caught by the scary thing and then wake up panting. I'll recall the content then also forget about it. This doesn't happen that often so I learned to deal with it.

I also have the ability to travel back in time when I'm in the half-awake half-asleep mode. It usually has to be a good dream or I'm close to waking up though.

So the time ability gives me the power to just go back to a point I want. I could then change the outcome and change the dream. But sometimes it doesn't work and goes back to the original direction. It also speeds up the process of waking up because it might make things more chaotic.

And that's all I think. Wow, I got way too detailed about how I dream. Oh well. This was supposed to be a Dream diary after all.

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