My Unknown Darkness

Ace'POV

After another torturing day, I came back to my home. There was heavy rain with thunder and lightning. For some unknown reason, I hate rain to my bone. Its sound and the feeling it brings, it's just so annoying. I freshen up and went to get my dinner. As except there wasn't any servant in the mansion. Even though I can make food 'why bother?' I got my dinner from the refrigerator and heated it. Then I made myself comfortable.Yeah.At my own home. I took my dinner and went to the dining room. It was Sausage Spaghetti Spirals, Chicken Noodle Casserole, Quicker Chicken and Dumplings and Spaghetti & Meatballs. It might feel like it is a lot for a person but it wasn't cause I barely eat something after lunch and most of the time I didn't get a proper lunch even though I get it from the mansion every day.

Everything was usually. Same me, alone in a big mansion while eating by myself without any company, the most suitable word is without any distressing. But there was a slight difference. It was the taste of the Spaghetti & Meatballs. Its taste was different. It wasn't the taste of the cuisine I used to eat. It wasn't too bad or too good either but I felt comfortable with it. It was different but it gave me a sweet and warm feeling. Suddenly, right after I munch the first bite I felt like an electric strike ran through my body. The grip around the fork and knife tighten before I even realize it.

''....Try this. I made it. This called Slow-Cooker Spaghetti & Meatballs. Do you know? It took me more than 8 hours to cook it.8 whole hours. It's almost half of the day....''

Suddenly a sweet honeyed female voice ranged inside my head. It rapped with childishness and sweetness. She sounded like a teenager or someone in her early twenties that was trying to be pampered by someone in a cute manner.

But that same cuteness was a curse to me. My head started to hurt like hell again. I grab my head tightly with both my hands while shut-in my eyes. The Culinary fell making a loud noise.

'Bang'That all it took to make the whole place sink in darkness. The whole world started to feel like a blank. My heart was in pain and my breath became unsteady. It was hard to breathe. I breathe from my mouth. It was like I have been suffocated by poison and vicious venom or oxygen surrounding me suddenly disappear.

I felt like I have been stab right through my heart. I wanted to cry. I went to my room with the help of walls. The only source of light was the light emitting from lightning. I sat down on my bed and leaned on the headboard of the bed. I felt really sad. It was like I lost someone or something precious to me. The feeling of loss was killing me. I didn't even have a single clue about what was the cause of this unbearable misery. I was lost in my world. The value of the thing that I was missing was indescribable. My heartbeat fastens like crazy. I clenched my head and screamed as loud as I can. I cried as harder as I can. In the next minute, I laughed like insane. I was mocking myself.

I think it took only a few hours for power to came back and devour the darkness but I fell asleep before that while thinking about the darkness inside me.

'what is it? how can it be gone? Can it even be gone?'My own but unknown darkness. It was killing me in every possible way. The feeling of blankness was destroying me inch by inch.

The next morning I woke up because of the smart home speaker. The next thing I do was calling to my Physiotherapist, Mr Collins. His full name is Alexander Collins. He is one of the best physiotherapists in the world. He is one of my friends but not like James and me. His calm demeanour and friendly aura draw me to believe him. I think every doctor has this kind of demeanour to ensure the trust of their patients. It was special when it comes to Physiotherapists because patients have to be open book in front of them to solve their problems. He knew about my problem from the very first beginning and he is the only one in the whole world who know about it. He is treating me for almost 3 years. He picked up after the second ring.

''Good morning Ace. I knew you would call me. Last night rainstorm affects you again, didn't it?''Alex asked with his usual friendly tone.

''Morning. It did but a little. This time the reason isn't rainstorm. It is...''Suddenly I heard the sound of my dog, Max. He is a golden retriever I have since 4 or 5 years.

I went to the balcony and looked at the garden where he usually stays. He was whining and moaning in an unusual manner with big eyes while watching at the wall that was higher than him. He put his front hands on the wall and whimper like begging or crying for something. It was really rare to see him like that cause he always stays in one place. He never let anyone come near him or the mansion except me. So I had to lock him in the back yard. He is surrounded by 3 walls and the side that don't have a wall is attached to the back door of the mansion. It's also used only by me. But I hadn't the time to visit him for months. Servants never go near him. The only time they do is when they have to give him food. It is also is done through a little space that is on the wall on his left side. But he barely eats or drinks. Even doctors can't find the reason for his state. They usually say it's because of boredom or lack of attention. He is aggressive to everyone except me without any reason. But today I can see a glimpse of sparkle in his eyes instead of sadness and pain but it was doubtful.

''Hello Ace, are you there?'' Alex asked. Concern was wrapped around his voice.

''Yeah. I can't tell it like this. Are you free in today's morning?''I asked while reforming my cold demeanour.

''Yeh,I am.'' Alex said.

''OK then. I'll meet you at 7.30 a.m sharp,'' I said.

''All right. See you soon.Bye.''Alex said.

''Hmm,'' I nodded and hanged up.

I looked at Max for one last time. He went to his usual bored and sad self again. Sign.....

'I just don't know what to do with him' Minutes later I did my usual morning routine and went to Alex's clinic.