A boy's Diary

"Back to Sam POV"

Since that day, Julian didn't speak to me and I didn't know anything about Adam so I was quite depressed. I am five months pregnant and I'm without my mates. It hurts so much to be alone, was it really a good choice that the goddess made? I don't know anymore.

I went to Julian's bedroom the next morning, I wanted to confront him and understand why he didn't want to speak with me. I know that Adam did that for me, but I didn't ask for it. I knocked at the door but he didn't answer for a long time, so I gave up and went on a walk with Richard and Dave, like every day, he wasn't such a bad guy after all.

"Did he speak to you?" Richard asked, worried and I just sighed, what could I have answered him?

"I know that is mostly my fault!" he said and my cousin stroking his back "But if this didn't happen the kid would be alive."

"And, what's so bad about that?" I asked confused. He was so overprotective of my sister, why did he change all of a sudden?

"I mean... it was all the plan of Black Moon leader, right?"

"Yeah! Even so, I think that is awful that someone had to die because of me."

They didn't stay all day with me because they had things to do. I knew that it was a lie but I didn't say anything.

I understood that they didn't want to bring back bad memories. I am grateful for the family I have.

"Meet me at the back door!" Julian orders with a cold voice. That made me suspect that something was wrong, but I needed to speak with him so I obey his order.

"I understand, I will be right there. But, why?"

"Just come, dammit!" he shouted and closed the link.

"What the hell happened?" I asked, confused. "Why is he that angry? Is he going to hurt me?"

I know that he is my mate but after everything that happens, I can't trust him completely. I may not know my family for long but I trust more in them than my own mate. Was it because they were family?

"Just hurry up, Sam!" he shouted again and I froze, shocked and scared. He never talked to me like that, ever. He is going to bully me again after the death of his kid? But he is my mate.

"Sam, just calm down and see what he wants!" I said to myself "The hormones."

"I recommend that you don't go!" my father advised me. "He is framing something, I don't lose you again, son."

"I know dad, but..."

He gave me a hug as it was his last one and give me a kiss on the forehead before going away.

I rushed to the backyard and suddenly I scented Adam so I started to walk faster, almost running. But, when I arrived at the agreed place I saw Julian, he was angrily stomping his feet.

I stopped and looked around, Adam wasn't there so I panicked and started to walk away but he saw me.

"Now, you will pay for the loss of my kid!" he said. Was he going to hit me? Like the old times? I was frightened "I have to make sure that you don't kill the other one."

"What?!" I asked confused. Why would kill my kids? Is he mad?

Julian looked like he wasn't expecting my answer, so he inverted his eyes and scratched his head as if he was thinking.

"Is better if you come with me, quietly!"

"What do you mean?" I asked while running.

All of a sudden, everything blacked out, and the next moment I opened my eyes, I was n a huge bedroom. The only light was from under the door.

"Julian!?" I called "What is happening?"

No one answered and I got out of the bedroom, quietly. My belly was hurting but I hugged it while walking so that I could understand what was happening.

"Where do you think you're going?" he asked, opening the door and pushing me back in "I told you that you're not going to kill them."

"You're crazy!" I said with a low laugh "Do you really think that I will kill my own kid?"

He turned the light on and I could see the bedroom better, it had a desk near the window, next to me, a wardrobe on the end of the bed and next to it a bathroom.

"Is better that you get used to it, because it is going to be your bedroom for the next months."

I couldn't say anything, I just lay on the bed and curled around my belly, crying.

After a while, he walked out of the bedroom and I got up again, walking around, thinking of a way of getting out of there.

I opened the desk drawer and I saw a diary with a photo on top of it, so I took the book out to read. Before I open the diary I took a quick look at the photo, it had two twins and a woman around twenties behind them. Then I smelled the photo and the diary, it had Adam's smell.

"Day 26 since mom disappeared." I read and I got curious. How would was he when he wrote it? the letters were a little shaky.

From what I can see, his mom must be really important to him.

"If I am going to be shut down here, at least I have to do something so I don't go crazy. Like Julian. So let's read this diary."