Im scared so scared i cant look at the sky without feelings terrible anxiety i hate the dark so much my mind and my eyes makes up figures any noise in the background thats not music makes it hard to breath i hate going out side i feel so vulnerable i gate the inside it feels so small i want to cry a lot but i dont my emotions are all over the place just like my thoughts i feel numb and sick and scared and angry and sad and lonely all at one i cant get any peace and i have no were to go i hate it people can piss me off just by stepping into the room i dont want to speek i want to punish people with my silence i dont care if they care or not most of them deserve it im a writer but speaking to people sometimes makes me nausous i have the strongest urges to cuss people out when they try to provoke me but i stay quite instead i think today i might snap i would apologize ahead of time but i dont feel any remose for what might come out of my mouth anyway i hope i feel better