Feel Guilty

I don't know how to deal with the strangeness that I feel right now, to be honest there is a feeling of dislike when I see my wife having fun with other men. Wait wife? Since when did I mention wife? I never admit it right? Or have I started to accept it? I don't know ... for sure right now I feel very annoyed to see a woman who is my wife sitting in the canteen while joking with other men.

"Tch, basic! Wife is outrageous, how can she joke around with other men," I hissed in annoyance.

"Doesn't he realize that she is a wife?" I grumbled as I walked away.

Many times I tried to get rid of my annoyance at Renata and remember a little about the agreement we canceled but the anger grew in my heart, making me frustrated. I don't want to glance at the clock on my hand. I've been waiting for Renata for almost half an hour in her room, but Renata never came to make me angry and chose to leave Renata's office. Don't forget to greet the nurse who is standing guard near the room.

"That's outrageous! What are they actually talking about? To forget about this time."

"You woman! Can't see what's visible for a second."

"Ahhh never mind! I should just go home," I said annoyed.

On the way home, I was still thinking hard about what I was feeling right now, instead of getting an answer, I was made even more annoyed and curious about the man I saw with Renata earlier.

"Who exactly is he?"

"Why is Renata so familiar with him?"

"Why is Renata so happy when she's with him?"

"Does Renata like him?"

"Arghhhh fuck it! I don't care about him, whatever!" cursed Daphne in frustration.

***

Renata was a little surprised why the employees she met looked at her strangely and whispered like they were talking about her.

"What is it?" Renata asked in her heart until she found an answer that made her feel guilty.

"Why do they look like that? Is there something wrong with me? Or do they already know that the boss is my husband? It's impossible," thought Renata.

"Doctor Renata wants to go home?" said Sister Maria politely.

"Yes, Sus, because I want to have dinner at Mama's house, so I have to go home immediately," Renata answered softly.

"Oh I see, be careful on the road then doc," said Sister Maria kindly.

A moment later Sister Maria slapped her forehead remembering something and she quickly turned around and ran after Renata's footsteps.

"Ah my goodness, I forgot, the doctor was here, Pak Dafa Hutama was here and wanted to meet Renata's doctor. He waited in Renata's doctor's room for a long time but immediately went home after eating in the canteen," said Sister Maria, which surprised Renata.

"What? So Mr. Dafa was here, Sus? Oh my goodness, why didn't the nurse tell me? Ouch! Then Mr. Dafa waited for a long time, didn't Sus?" Renata asked in succession which made Maria chuckle.

"I'm sorry, Doc, Pak Dafa himself didn't allow me to help find a doctor. He said he wanted to wait for Doctor Renata to come because he didn't want to interfere with the doctor's activities. , said Sister Maria.

With light steps Renata walked towards the lobby to wait for the driver. He sat on the bench, checking his cell phone.

"Afternoon, Doctor Ren," said one of the nurses who was Renata's colleague.

Renata was silent, not responding to her friend's greeting. Renata's mind occupied a lot about Dafa, which kept distracting her.

"Doctor all right?" asked Sister Ata.

"Ah y-yes Sus, what's wrong?" Renata said surprised.

"Doctor daydreaming huh?"

"Ah yes, Sus, I have a lot on my mind, sorry?"

The car that picked up Kiana had arrived. She immediately said goodbye to Sister Ata and got into the car. He massaged his dizzy head.

"Oh my gosh, Mas Dafa must be really angry with me."

"Anyways told me to wait I didn't say anything."

"But why is he here? There must be something important, but what? Then why did he suddenly come home? Even though he's been waiting for me for a long time. But if he went to the canteen he should have seen me if he was actually eating in the canteen. "Don't go, Mas Dafa, just like that because you see me and Sis Samba chatting again," Renata said quietly as she covered her mouth.

"Could he be angry again? What's going on?" said Renata panicked which made Mr. Iman the driver ask questions.

"Why No?" asked Mr. Faith.

"It's okay, Mr. Renata forgot something and was afraid that Renata's friend was angry," Renata avoided Mr. Iman, who was driving in front.

In Renata's mind, she kept imagining how Dafa's expression would be if she was angry. Renata smiled a little in her mind because she imagined Dafa's handsome face when she was angry.

When he arrived at his mother's house, he saw that Dafa's car was parked there, which meant that the owner had already arrived. Renata hastily entered the house looking for the whereabouts of her children.

"Mother!" Kafa exclaimed as he ran into Renata's body.

"Adek misses Mother," said Kafa while clinging spoiled.

"Yes, dear, what are you doing, your child? It seems very exciting?"

"I'm watching frozen movie, Mom and Oma and sister, but Grandma is going to the toilet," said Shafa while hugging and kissing Renata's cheek.

"Wow, is it fun?" Renata replied smiling.

"Ren, you just got home, son? Why did you tell Dafa to go home first?" said the mother.

"H-huh? Ye-yes Ma, Ren was still busy, so Mas Dafa Ren told him to go first," said Renata, smiling awkwardly.

"Yes, hurry up to the room, my husband has been waiting in the room for a long time," said the mother as she walked to sit beside Shafa.

Renata walked up the stairs to her room on the second floor, she immediately entered the room to clean herself. As soon as the door opened she widened her eyes when she saw her husband without top clothes wearing only shorts, just got out of the bathroom, instantly Renata's cheeks turned red.

"Aaaah," shouted Renata looking away.

"Please Ren, don't be a pervert," Renata cursed in her heart then immediately headed to the bathroom.

Renata took off all her clothes and got into the bathtub which she had filled with warm water and mixed with her favorite lavender flower extract. About thirty minutes Renata soaked enjoying the scent of lavender flowers that soothed her mind, then got up and immediately rinsed her body under the splash of water.

"Aah, it's so fresh, the aches and pains are gone," said Renata slowly.

Dafa closed his eyes and smelled the scent of lavender flowers that permeated all corners of the room.

"It smells good," Dafa mumbled then got up from her seat and went to the wardrobe and put on one of the T-shirts.

Dafa furrowed her brow when she saw that there were some men's clothes in Renata's closet that looked brand new.

"Is it true that Renata prepared it?" Daphne said in his heart. Dafa immediately closed the cupboard to go to the bathroom.

"Mas Dafa," said Renata who passed by Dafa, but there was no answer from Dafa.

Dafa just walked away without answering Renata's greeting. He walked straight to the bathroom. Renata shrugged her shoulders, she preferred to remain silent because she knew her husband was angry because of the incident earlier.

"If you're not angry, just ignore it, especially if you're angry," Renata thought as she looked at her face in the mirror, leaving Dafa still in the bathroom. He walked out of the room to the kitchen to prepare dinner.