Chapter 9(Hard Decision)

I'm already in reality again. I didn't know that I slept 2 days. I'm going to living room, I saw my whole family. Dad is back in our home, and my elder brother Mike back too. All of them saw me, but they ignored me.

It was also a bit of surprise, because I had been in bed for 2 days but no one woke me up.

I went to the table to eat, but no one wanted to eat with me. I'm eating alone. When I was done, I took a bath. Because it's a weekend now, I'm going out for a walk.

When I was away from home, I remembered what had happened in my dream last night.

"It's good for my imagination I have friends, it's good for my imagination that people accept me, it's good for my imagination that I enjoy my life. There was no one to argue with me, all of them are kind at me. Especially Kath"

I'm back to home, and lay on my bed. I was depressed that time. I want to kill myself to be with Kath forever, but when I do that. How about my family? Will they cry when I die? Apparently not, because they doesn't care about me.

I was looking for a thick rope inside my room, I found it in the corner. I also took paper and ballpen. Before I do what I plan to do, I will write for my family.

"Mom? Dad? I'm sorry if I do this, it's hard for me to live, I feel like everybody doesn't want me, even you Mom and Dad. Maybe this is the right time to say goodbye to all of you, I want to rest. Be careful always. Sorry Mom and Dad again. I love you so much."