Why on Earth did I let myself fall for him?! He was hired to kill me, for goodness sake! How stupid have I been? On top of that, I married a lunatic that wanted me dead the entire time?!
What the hell is wrong with me?! I went years without a relationship. The minute I dip my toe in the pond, I'm dodging bullets, assassins, and psychos!
I turn and sit on the bed, wiping my tears, but it's of no use.
It's like a hose that will not go off!
I give up and lie on my back, looking at the ceiling. My heart is broken, and it's over some asshole with family issues.
He wouldn't be so heartless if his parents were alive. Then again, I wouldn't have ever met him. Someone else would've been hired, and I would've died long ago.
"You need to pull yourself together," I say out loud. "Your parents are in danger, and you're crying over some prick. You love him, but he doesn't love you back. It's all right! You won't ever have to see him again when this is all over. Move on."