Missing You Once Again

There I was sitting in the living room and watching TV, and then I felt the need to call your number. Sometimes we all wish to hear your voice, once again. We all wish to hear your laugh. I miss the way we all joked around you, when we all drank coffee and tea and talked for hours and hours. I want to hear your talk about how I can do it, and that I should never give up on the things that I want to do in life. I feel like I have learned all the motivational talk you said to me, and the fact that you'll always be there for me and anyone else, that you care about and love. I wish to see your face instead of seeing it on the grave stone. I wish to hold your hand instead of touching your grave stone. I wish to see your again instead of seeing your picture in the grave stone and the pictures on our phones, the memories we once all had together. We took many pictures, we had many amazing time together, but I wonder if it would be even more amazing if we had more time together.

Continuing living as nothing happened is really hard, losing two people that you live us even harder. Dreaming about you for nights and nights was something special to me. Watching me? You would always tell me that "Everything is fine. Don't worry about me.", in my dreams, and I cannot say anything, not even hi, or something else, I can just smile and watch you smile back at me. Mentioning you wasn't hard at all, it was like you are still with us. Fee months ago, after you died, u couldn't even see your pictures and now I can.

"It will be fine, look at me. I'm smiling now."

It's something you would say to me in my dream. It's not like we were worried about you, it's just that we were missing you once again.