CHAPTER 3. LIGHT OF MY LIFE

I went to the pawn shop and pawned the wedding ring. I acquired some cash and was ready to make my way towards my home. The moment I reached my home, I heard distinct sounds of laughter. I entered to find Seth sitting and having breakfast with my parents.

I couldn't perceive the reason behind his presence in my home.

I was afraid and anxious that he might find out what I did with the ring. In order to assert that he didn't intimidated me, I stared directly towards Seth. He was surrounded with love and gaiety bestowed upon him by my parents.

When he heard the sounds of my footsteps, he turned back and smiled. I made my way towards the table and tried to discuss the existing problem with my parents, especially the events that occurred preceding the marriage. The moment I was about to open my mouth, I was interrupted by Seth.

He said, "Forgive me dear, it was all my fault. I would never interfere in your personal life. I should not have gone overboard".

Listening to him lie, I was taken aback.

I averred, " What do you mean? I don't understand. It was you who-------‐----", and I was interrupted again.

"Baby, Forgive me ! Just let that be", he exclaimed shamelessly.

The moment he completed his sentence, he held my hand and whispered in my ear, "If you don't wish to see your father's career destituted, then 'BEHAVE'. Don't utter a single word".

I ran towards my room with rage in my eyes. I stood in front of the mirror. I took a deeper look in my eyes. My doleful eyes expressed nothing but poignancy. I turned to look around my room, I reminisced about all the happy moments I had in that room with my parents. I looked at the photos of us. So many happy faces. Buoyant, Silly and cheerful looking faces in the photographs surrounded me. In between stood me, the broken one going through unfathomable pain and discomfort in my heart. Suddenly, I heard boisterous sounds of footsteps, making their way from the stairs towards my room. So, I hurried towards the door in order to shut it. Evidently, I made my way towards the knob of the door but didn't succeed in shutting it.

He came in before I could close it. Seth was a clever man who knew how to get his way through things. I always admired him for that. But that quality of his appeared as a threat in that very moment. He had a smirk on his face.

He neared me and asserted, "Where is your wedding ring? Pawned it for some money? I underestimated you. You are not just audacious but also corrupt. Bad girls ought to be punished for their unruly behaviour. I assume I told you not to run away. You don't listen, do you?"

"How did you know about the ring being pawned? Did you follow me? Scumbag! We have not even registered our marriage. You have no right to confine me. Do you understand? Stop pestering me! I don't want to see you at all", I exclaimed. His eyes went red with rage. He held my arms and pushed me on my bed. The whole thing happened so abruptly, I was astounded. He laid on top of me while holding my hands in his one hand. His face neared mine. I panicked and moved my legs forcefully in order to break through. He took off his tie and roped my hands with it to the bed post. As I was pumping my lungs to scream, his hand covered my mouth.

With a grin, he declared, "I shall be the one to quench all of your thirsty desires and you shall do the same for me. That is all what I need from you and this marriage".

Then, he let go of my mouth and I sobbed and begged him to stop. With the tears dripping from my eyes, I exclaimed, "You were the light of my life. My days began and ended with you. How did you turn into a brute? Where did that love go". Due to the extreme sunlight that penetrated from the window, his eyes seemed more lighter than the usual. He grinned and spoke, "Let me show you the love that you look for".

His hand began to move all over my body. He was feeling me. I hated him but he was arousing me. His touch drove me insane with pleasure. When I was taken in by the pleasures of the body , my mind only held disdain fo myself.

Thereupon, he licked his lips and started kissing my neck. Then, he neared his face towards mine. His face was so close that I could feel his breath on my face. He brushed my hairs with his fingers and bit my lips lightly. Taken in by pleasure and delirium, I had no control over my body and feelings. I licked his fingers and kissed his jaw. I stared deep into his eyes with his hands exploring every inch of my body. Once again, he brought his lips closer to mine. Our tongues intertwined and he held me closely in his arms. I felt so weak as If I would break with another touch of his.

He fondled my bosom and laid deep kisses on it. He caressed my thighs and left abrupt love bites on my neck and chest. I was in a divine frenzy. I couldn't fathom the unfamiliar feelings arousing deep in my heart. We both fell into an ecstatic world of new found liberty. He penetrated me and kissed me repeatedly. His moans were as louder as mine. His breath was warm, and his touch was strong. Unable to restrain a control over my body, my hatred melted in the heat of our closeness and warm feelings. Not realizing the hate withering in my heart and the amount of suffering I had witnessed in the last two days, I shamelessly hugged him closer and lied next to him.