Suicidal Plan, Incomplete Prophecy, and Utter Annihilation

So my suicide plan goes a little like this.

The most fearsome and ruthless Lycan King is bound to get angry if someone confronts him, right?

He is also bound to get angry if that said someone tries to rile him up on purpose.

And he is also bound to get if that said someone is someone as insignificant and lowly as me.

And he is also bound to get angry to the extent of killing someone if someone like me tries to attack him.

And while he is at it, he may decide the entire pack is full of offending people like me and end up annihilating the entire pack?

Sounds like a good plan, right?

I don't see anyway how this could fail.

He will kill me? Perfect, he will actually be doing me a favor.

He will beat me up? Eh, nothing new. I get beaten up on a daily basis. I have heard he can not be compared to a werewolf in any way since he is just a whole new league, so his hits might hurt a lot more, but like I said, nothing new. Same shit, different day.

He will ignore me? Used to it. Worth a shot at least.

He will be angered to the extent of throwing me in his dungeon and torture the shit out of me? Far better than getting tortured in this shitty pack. At least I will get tortured for my offense and not some illogical nonsense shit.

The Lycan Pack is full of powerful beings, incomparable to the pathetic werewolves here, so chances are that their treatment would be a lot more torturous. But doesn't this mean my body would shut down faster and I would die soon?

Sounds like perfect to me.

If there is a one in a million chance that he is a twisted, sadistic psychopath who decided to eradicate my entire pack as my punishment, isn't that wonderful? Sounds like heaven to me.

But the catch is, how do I approach him? I doubt the pack members would just let me be. Heck, I bet they will lock me up in my room, so I don't ruin anything like they claim I always do.

Hmm, if all my prediction fails and someone captures me trying to go towards the king before I can do anything, I will probably be starved and my awesome father will whip me until my back is bleeding raw.

Now that is nothing new as well, so I will just be optimistic and hope the Lycan king will be my savior. Kill me, and just be done with it.

Would also save a lot of trouble.

So like how do I attack him in the way it makes him furious enough to the extent?

Should I slap him? Ugh, just thinking about it is making me shiver.

Or should I insult one of his pack members? Oooh, I heard he broke some pack's Beta's arm because he tried to push one of his people.

I hope my father does something to get on his nerves and gets beaten up in front of the entire pack.

Kekeke, I can only imagine how satisfying it would be.

But I want him to kill me, not to break my arm. So should I try to stab one of his men or women?

I know all of them will be powerful enough to defend themselves and break me in half like a twig, but the point isn't for me to successfully attack them. It is to successfully make them kill me.

Mhm, trying to stab them will probably be a good enough reason.

Nodding in determination, I smiled.

A full blown, radiant smile, showcasing my pearly teeth.

Look at this. Have you ever seen a person with such a suicidal plan in mind so happy?

Here I am. My eyes twinkles at the thought of getting killed.

You would ask and wonder, why don't I just kill myself and save all the trouble?

I can't.

I would know, I have tried.

Apparently, there was a prophecy handed down to my father before mine and Aurelia's birth.

[*** daughter of yours will be your destruction ** *********

**** daughter shall be the most powerful ** *** **** and her **** shall be the ****** one by the moon for she is blessed by the heavens]

I had no wolf or special power since birth, so obviously I was removed from the second prophecy and was deemed as the destruction.

Whereas Aurelia, who has shown tremendous success and growth from a young age, was deemed as the blessed one.

What a load of bull.

Like seriously? Believing in a prophecy whose more than half words still have not been undeciphered.

Well, even if the prophecy was fully revealed, and I really was the one destined for destruction, it is still a load of crap to put me through this abuse and torture solely based on mere words.

But let's say for suppose I really am the destruction. Shouldn't they treat me nicely? Heck, as nice as possible to avoid me becoming their ruin. By abusing me, aren't they giving me all the more reason to wreak havoc in them?

Isn't that right?

Huff, I can't even touch a strand of their hair, let alone wreak havoc.

But I know someone who can.

The Lycan King.

Ah, it would be so amazing if this pack stirs up some shit and greatly pisses him off and he burns this entire pack to ashes.

How great that would be?

Anyway, where was I again?

Oh, on the topic of being unable to unalive myself.

The two times I tried to take my life, I failed miserably.

When I tried to hang myself, the rope broke apart.

When I tried to drown, I was pushed out of the sea by the waves.

When a series of same events followed, I figured it was most probably due to that prophecy.

Am I cursed because I was born to be the destruction?

How is any of this my fault?

I don't really care, to be honest. Because I totally would grab any opportunity available to bring utter ravageness to this shitty pack.