Love You Even When It Hurts Part 3

Word Count: 1318

Pairings: Lucifer Morningstar x Reader

Warnings: angst, comfort, feels

A/N: once again requested from many people lol Feel free to drop me a request, and enjoy the story!

Summary: It had been so long since you had seen him, but it still hurt and you could never bring yourself to date anyone else. Unable to truly move on. You had assumed he would have moved on, gotten over you quickly. You were wrong.

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Lucifer laughed as he chugged from the bottle in his hand. He danced with strangers he didn't know and drowned himself in various types of alcohol. But it was all to distract himself. He went through the motions without actually feeling it. He stumbled back over to the bar, motioning to the bartender.

"Another bottle!" He called.

The bartender nodded, and Lucifer turned around to watch the crowd. His smile fell for a second, when he thought he saw you standing by the piano, but when he got a better look, he realized it wasn't you. It couldn't have been. His mood immediately fell, and he turned around to stare at the mirror on the wall behind the bar.

"Lucifer!"

Maze walked down the stairs and took in Lucifer's disheveled appearance. She frowned and crossed her arms when she finally reached him.

"Mazikeen! Have you come to join the fun?" He asked reaching for the new bottle.

"I found her."

Lucifer didn't seem to hear her as he mindlessly nodded and opened the bottle.

"Yes well just keep looking then. One little human shouldn't be able to avoid the great bounty hunting Maze forever."

He had gotten so use to Maze coming back empty-handed, he had stopped truly listening to her updates on locating you. Maze rolled her eyes and grabbed the bottle from his hands.

"No Lucifer. I her."

For a moment Lucifer said nothing just stared at Maze with wide eyes, and a slightly disbelieving look. Maze smirked handing him a piece of paper.

"Don't thank me to hard." She teased.

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You threw your keys in the little bowl by the front door. Work had been awful as usual and you were ready to fall onto your bed, and never get up. You didn't bother hanging up your coat, to tired to really care as you dropped it to the floor.

You hated that the first thing you thought of even after all this time was how Lucifer used to comfort you.

"Stressful day darling?"

You nearly jumped out of your skin when you heard that. You would know that voice anywhere and you refused to turn around.

"How did you find me?" You said voice wavering slightly.

You heard him stand but you wouldn't face him, knowing that as soon as you did, the tears would fall.

"Maze of course. You didn't go very far did you?"

You thought, but didn't say that out loud.

"What are you talking about, I moved almost an hour away." You scoffed walking towards the kitchen.

Lucifer didn't fail to notice you still didn't look at him. He followed you.

"Yes but you stayed in LA, could have gone anywhere darling, why didn't you?"

You wanted to yell it, scream it, but you remained silent. Lucifer watched you for a moment, before clearing his throat.

"I tried calling, but you knew that, you did block me after all. A bit rude don't you think?"

Your sadness and regret turned into anger after that comment.

"Rude? You're calling rude? Nice Lucifer real nice, ignoring someone and blowing them off repeatedly could be considered rude to you know."

"And it was rude to run out before we could have a proper conversation about it, wouldn't you agree my dear?"

You grabbed the counter top and bowed your head as you stared at the gold flecks in the granite.

"We're both rude then, glad we established that. Make sure you close the door on your way out." You muttered.

You wouldn't face him, you couldn't, knowing as soon as you did that would be it. Your walls, your resolve, your strength, it would all evaporate.

"Way out? I haven't seen you in months love! I've had Maze searching everywhere for you! The very least you could do is look at me!"

Your heartbeat increased, and you let out a shaky breath. He wasn't the only one having a hard time.

"Seven months, two weeks, and seven days." You whispered.

Lucifer stared at you confused and you finally turned to look at him. You felt the tears that escaped but you gave him a small smile anyway.

"It has been seven months, two weeks, and seven days, since I left, but who's counting anyway?" You laughed sadly.

Lucifer stared at you as you stared back, the most venerable he had ever seen you. He took a step towards you and reached a hand out to wipe away your tears, like he had done so many times before. You lightly pushed his hand away, and he let his arm fall to his side.

"I never meant to hurt you darling."

You only shook your head and went to walk past him.

"But you did, and from the looks of it, you're doing ok."

Lucifer grabbed your arm and you looked at him surprised as he looked at you pleading.

"I'm not ok. I'm so very far from ok darling. I've tried to get you out of my mind, but there you are everywhere I look. I swore I saw you today, at Lux. It was a stupid notion of course, I knew you wouldn't be foolish enough to go back. Yet I still found myself hoping it was you though, like a fool. My beautiful little human, I adore you, and I should have paid you more attention. But I'm a bloody moron, and I let you slip through my fingers."

You placed your hand over his hand that still held your arm. Your heart was breaking all over again and you didn't know if you could handle it again.

"Lucifer please don't, I can't do this again. I can't -"

The words died on your tongue when you saw him pull your necklace out his pocket.

"I do believe I gave this to you to keep my dear. It's not very good manners to return a gift now is it?" He smiled at you.

You looked from him, then to your necklace. You gingerly took it from his hand and ran your fingers over the pendant that hung on the silver chain.

"You... you kept it?"

Lucifer wiped a stray tear from your cheek. You hadn't even noticed it.

"Of course I did my dear. It was yours, I couldn't possibly toss it aside."

You stared at it, and Lucifer fixed the buttons on his suit jacket.

"Besides, I know you're rather fond of that trinket."

You turned your gaze to him and raised an eyebrow.

"I'm rather fond of who gave it to me as well. One could even say I love him."

Lucifer's eyes immediately filled with surpise, and he looked at you like he thought he might have misheard you.

"Love? As in the present tense of the word?"

You laughed, slipping your necklace on. It felt like a piece of you had returned and it made you fell whole.

"Lucifer, you silly devil, I've never stopped loving you."

His overjoyed expression warmed your heart, and he went to kiss you but you held a hand up.

"I love you, but that doesn't mean things are just going to go back to how they were before. You still have a lot of apologizing to do."

He didn't seem any less ecstatic.

"Of course my dear, but could you say it one more time I'm not sure I heard you the first time." He smiled cheekily.

You laughed, playfully hitting his chest.

"I love you."

Lucifer tapped his ear, feigning a confused expression.

"What was that?"

You rolled your eyes but your smile remained firmly planted on your lips. Lucifer chuckled brushing a stray strand of hair away from your eyes.

"I know I haven't said it before, but I love you Y/N, so much more than you know."