Marriage life

Well everything got planned so fast, and I got married.in my mind I thought "now this is the time to be happy,no living in fear,no suffering."just me and happiness!

Things were not easy at first, I never had an idea of what to do when he leaves for work and am left back at home alone., I just hated the fact that am living by rules now.

I couldn't go out,I could not talk to anyone,if I need to eat something i had to ask from him,something I was not used to.

Did you clean my shirts?iron my clothes?clean my shoes?did you make super?did you mob the house?holy shit!!!this thing was tiring hearing it every day.

Down to six months I had already began to adapt the marriage life, things seemed to be working fine,until I realized I was pregnant.

Omg!!me pregnant?no way!am never going to have a child I said to myself.

Days went by weeks and my stomach was growing big,I could feel my child kicking in my belly.

That's when the really hit me hard that I was really pregnant. I decided to visit the doctor for clarification and it turned out I was really pregnant.

The truth which I was not ready to swallow. I still couldn't believe that.Now it was time for me to leave my childish behavior and get ready to welcome my own baby,I was nervous and scared. I feared that I might bring this child on earth then turn up neglecting her just like what my mom did,

I started visiting the antenatal clinics and the nurses would teach me how feed the baby,how to change the diapers and how to bathe them. I also joined counseling classes.

After months of fear and patiently waiting,I gave birth to a bouncing baby boy!

After my first sight on my baby,he was so cute and looked exactly like me.

He was a young version of me.omg the feeling changed my mindset completely.

I now wanted to be his mother,I was ready to give him all the love I never got from my mom, I never wanted him to go through whatever I went through. I cried rivers of joy after seeing him.