My Butterfly [1]

The first time I meet her was around 2011. At that time, my friends an I went on a trip for vacation and she came with us. When I first met her, I felt a little different. I felt different from any other girl I had ever met. I can't really explain what kind of thing it was, but it sure was a completely different feeling. And at the moment I immediately met her and enjoyed our vacation. After that, I asked for her contact, yes this is so that I can be closer to her and luckily she gave me her contact.

I started texting with her, she's kind and warm hearted person. She often went to play where I used to play with my friends. Even though we weren't that close at the time, but I still feel the way I felt from the first time we met.

As time passed, I became close to her. She told me about her relationship, she complained to me, she told me everything. I might have earned her trust. After that, she rarely went to my friends' gathering place, she would come when I was there.

Yes, she in a relationship right now. At this point, I haven't felt anything for her. I'm comfortable with this kind of situation.

We often hangout together, we used to skip school just to spend time together. The more we passed, the closer we got. I started to go to her house, meet her mother, talk to her mother and I felt there was so close to her family. As a result, her mother said to me, "I'll leave her to you, take a good car of her", and I said "Yes mom"

After I got the message from her mother, I started thinking about making her to be my girlfriend. Yeah, I think that's the best way I can keep it. And I told that to my bestfriend, that I was going to make her to be my girlfriend. My bestfriend agrees with that and support me when I say that.

Somehow, after I told it to my bestfriend, something strange happened to her. She often goes to my friends' gathering place, even though she doesn't want to go to there if I'm not with her. But at that time, I thought maybe because I was a bit busy with my school and what made me think that way because she went with her bestfriend too.

When I rarely went to my friends' gathering place due to busy for school, there was one my friend who told me that she was dating with my bestfriend. I didn't believe what he said at first because they rarely saw each other, rarely hangout together. But my friend continued to convince me and said that all my friends already knew it all.

After hear that, I immediately went to my friends' gathering place and when I got there, I saw she was alone with my bestfriend, then I pulled her up and said, "Really?"

she replied, "What?"

"Really you're dating with my bestfriend?", I said

She replied, "Sorry, I was forced, I can't do anything, I was threatened by him, blablabla..."

After hearing that, I was at peak of my emotions, I immediately hit my bestfriend and we fought there, my friends who were there immediately intervened. After the fight, I went to say to her, "Okay, it' okay, grats! just go ahead".

After that, at night, alone, I went to somewhere just to cry, cry profusely. And I started hurting myself and thought about ending my life here.

At that time. August 2014, I lost the person I love and my bestfriend betrayed me. It's the worst thing that comes together.

But, it's not over yet.