childhood

i was born in a family which already have 4 boys . me and my twin brother.we (me and my brother) are the youngest in all. i m the only girl child in my family. here all the boys are favoured and i was nothing in there eyes ( grandparents). my parents are both working.i used to live in my nani house where everyone loves me a lot they all treated me like there child. i was grown up there. they used to call me golu(as i m a bit fatty nd a cute child). then my parents gave me a name "ana".

i m a hard working child ,who loves to study ,do hard work and wants to make there parents tension free regarding her future and life. i m not a social girl . i want friends a lot of but i can't be friends with everyone .

when i was in 9th standard my all friends have there bf's nd i m the who doesn't have any( a simple girl)and that's what we called an attraction age.i also get attracted towards someone who is elder then me as i was in a girls school and my friend told me to contact that person (that was totally not my wish , not my own decision) and i did as i was told i became friends with that boy and then everything looks like god but that's the point where the regrets and faults in my life started .

few day passed , few months passed, and everything seems like normal , everything was going okay but suddenly when i was meeting that boy my family gets suspected about that and even his family also gets suspected about us and everything messed up ,we got caught nd there comes the restrictions nd there comes the change in my life .

it was like a jail (the feeling), i was forced to leave that friends bcoz of them i got into all these things . i changed the friends but still my life has already became a hell .

suddenly the mother of that boy did something which she shouldn't do but she did , she did tell some people in the society about us that we were something .she thought that by doing this she is spoiling my image my name but she forgot that it is also targeting her own son . that boy accused me for that thing . he accused me that i did all this i told yhe people of the society but no that was not me that was his own mother .

i didn't tell him that i just silently except that accusations nd i move on in my life and that's my first regret of my life that why shouldn't i told him that that's not me that's his mother who did that thing .

then i just kept myself in studies.

i hate boys after this incident .

then when i was in 11th standard suddenly a boy came in my life whom i call bhai , he is handsome, hot,he respect girls , and the most important thing he is very loyal to his girlfriend whom he loves a lot .

bhai is my first crush whom i like the most still.he is an ideal for me ,a ideal boy which i want in my life.he completely washed my brain regarding the hatred towards boys . he is best.

he told me that all the boys are not same .

i still remember that day when we were standing around our van ( we know each other as we go in the same van to the coaching) bcoz we cane early nd were waiting for the others to come and suddenly his friend came (i used to hate that friend of his bcoz i don't know but he is sort of like a bug who roam around a flower here i refer him as a bug that friend of bhai nd me as a flower he always used to show off in front of me , always try to act smart in front of me and i hate that)and i told bhai that here comes your antique friend he asked me why u hate him i told him that i don't know bhai i just hate boys then bhai asked me then with whom will u marry , i told him that i m not a lesbian obviously i will marry to a biy but i don't wanna marry .

he just is fantastic. he changed my view of seeing boys as an enemy.

then in 12th standard one boy named akash came in my life.he is actually one of my coaching friends social media friend.he is so annoying creature.he proposed me and i told him no . then he used my Friend to convince me to say yes to his proposal . he used to force my Friend to convince me . and bcoz of that i happen to say him yes . it was just a forceful relation which was meant just for someone sake.but even after that , that relationship doesn't last for more than 3-4 months bcoz i had a crush on someone else. that is the second regret of my life.