Don't drive myself crazy

Hearing what Jimmy said to me once again, without being embarrassed, now I immediately hugged Jimmy's body, there was no more pride that was inside of this, what now is, I just want to hug him and let me feel it, besides the words he spoke to me I also wanted to hear his soft heart beat my ears.

It turned out that Jimmy returned my hug and he hugged my body so tightly, this event will never be forgotten, under a shady tree and witnessed by this mute lake Jimmy and I became one in a hug that we ourselves never know what a hug means. This, for sure I can only say in my heart ...

"Jimmy, let me hug your body even though I know that I'm not your lover."

The sound of the school entrance bell was starting to be heard and that sign finally released me from Jimmy's arms. It feels like this morning I drank thousands of times of vitamins which made my body and soul even more excited to take part in today's lesson. I don't care what my status is to Jimmy, but what I always hear from Jimmy is that I am the most important person in his life, so be it. I will keep this love until I know clearly who I am to him.

"Jim 'the entrance bell has rang, hurry up .... the school gates will be closed, we can't enter the school!"

I immediately pulled Jimmy's hand to invite him back into the school, because I was afraid that if the gate was closed it would be a sign Jimmy and I would not be able to enter the classroom and would not be able to attend today's lessons. This school is surrounded by a wall that is about 4 meters high, almost the same as a prison, so no student or student can climb it if the gate is closed, we can only surrender to accept the SP1 letter and finally return home with a guilty face the body that feels weak because it is ready will be scolded by both parents.

However, beyond my expectation, it turned out that it was not me who pulled Jimmy's hand so Jimmy could follow me to go back into the school, but Jimmy pulled my hand so I came back in Jimmy's arms.

"Jimmy ....!"

I was surprised because I didn't expect Jimmy to do this at all and this time Jimmy was the one who hugged me, making this heart full of questions, What does all this mean?

"Ayuni, just 5 minutes! Let me 5 minutes hug yourself again, Let me feel once again the calmness and comfort of my soul when I hug you, I also don't understand what I feel inside of me, sometimes I feel scared but I have to be able to go through all of this, you are the only friend who understands about me and can understand me, thank you Ayuni ... thank you. " Jimmy breath was so excited over my head, am I dreaming right now? I asked myself and then I tried to pinch myself and I felt pain with my own pinch, I don't know what was in my heart right now after I heard what Jimmy said to me I increasingly didn't understand why Jimmy could be like this to me, actually What is Jimmy thinking and why is Jimmy doing this to me? This heart is getting raging on the questions posed by Jimmy what attitude does he want from me? Does he want to make my feelings hope for him even more and make me fantasize about him or does he really not know what love means? I paused in Jimmy's arms even though it raised a lot of questions but, honestly .... I also felt happy that cannot be described in words at this time.

"Jim, let's go back to school. We'll be late, we'll get SP1 and I'll be in big trouble because Ayuna will tell Daddy about me." Immediately I took Jimmy's hug and said to him with a face that hoped he would understand my current condition. Jimmy looked at me sharply making me feel blushed because of those eyes ...

"Ayuni, if I asked you to go ... Would you like to come with me?"

One question from Jimmy, which made me feel hard to swallow my saliva at this time, because the question was really beyond my expectations, I did not think that today Jimmy will make so many surprises for me, which makes me almost crazy made, I thought Is Jimmy want to ask me to skip school today? Or does he want to ask me to go out with him on his date with Ayuna this weekend? I looked back at Jimmy's face with full of questions and I felt something strange about Jimmy right now, so he could turn out like this to me.

"Jim 'where do you want to take me? Do you want to intend to skip today? If that's true, I don't want to! Because later Ayuna will cheer to see me if I get angry from papa today." I said while leaving Jimmy on the edge of this lake because I didn't want to get crazy he made and I didn't want to be insane just because of this unclear love, the most important thing for me right now I'm thankful because he already wanted to defend me from Ayuna's crime earlier but for other things I don't want to think first, it's true that high school love is beautiful but I realize my love is not yet clear and I also don't know how Jimmy feels to me whether it's love or just an ordinary friend because right now, it's just me. who always accompany him in times of sorrow or joy.

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