CHAPTER 73

Y/N'S POV

Every time I felt more irritable, in a worse mood and with less energy, they weighed me down to the eyelashes. I couldn't keep up with the rest of the class visiting different monuments, so from time to time I had to stop and rest next to Sadie's father. I kept drinking coffee, tea and taking any substance that would keep me awake. The situation was really desperate, not to say that the lack of sleep made it much more difficult for me to contain my hidden true identity.

-Mr. Sink: Y/N, put those fangs away before someone notices - he whispered to me.

-Y/N: I can't take it anymore - I looked at him - Are you sure there is no other way to get rid of my mother's consciousness? Please, I'm exhausted...

- Mr. Sink: I'm sorry but no, this is the only method - he pressed his lips - Your mother's conscience has too much willpower, she is bent on surviving.

-Y/N: She was raised on the rancor and disdain of rejection for being a yako, her thirst for revenge seems to be infinite - I looked at him exhausted - But my strength is not, I'm reaching my limit.

-Mr. Sink: Hold on a little longer, you can - he smiled and passed me another thermos with coffee.

The first three days in Washington I was able to bear it quite well, but by the third night I was already on the verge of fainting. Sadie told me she needed to take a shower and turn on some music in the meantime to keep me awake. I ignored her advice and decided to take a short break instead. I lay down on the bed and little by little I was giving in until I fell asleep, I knew it was a bad idea but I couldn't keep fighting.

I woke up and saw Sadie's face horrified as she was wearing only a towel, for some reason she didn't even want to come near me. I ran to the bathroom and used my hand to remove the mist from the mirror, then it was that I saw myself with scarlet-red eyes. It was strange, I was aware that my mother had control over me at that moment but I was not able to react. In fact, my body was moving by itself and that's why I couldn't stop myself when I jumped out of the hotel window.

- Sadie: Y/N! - she shouted from the window watching me fall - Shit...

I fell on top of a car that was destroyed, I didn't give time for anyone to recognize me because I immediately started running through the city. The afternoon had been cloudy and the moment I left the hotel a torrential rain started falling helping me to hide in the shadows. I couldn't control it and my claws came out next to my fangs and a heartbreaking growl that caused several neighborhood dogs to start barking.

I could hear several voices trying to run after me, among them were Wednesday and Mr. Sink, but neither of them was able to reach me. My mother was looking to flee far away from the city and she got it by jumping over the roofs to avoid the curious humans who were watching. We quickly drove away and did not stop until we reached Rock Creek Park, one of the most popular green areas of the capital.

I was going crazy, I wanted to stop and go back to the hotel, but my mother's consciousness was too powerful. So much so that when I tried to regain control and struggle with myself, I ended up falling into the biggest and deepest puddle I could have found. I stayed on my knees for a few moments watching my reflection in the water, red eyes and my fox features exposed. I myself felt afraid when I saw myself, I looked like a rabid animal with a natural killer instinct.

I got up and tried to start walking back to the hotel, but my mother wouldn't let me and forced me to keep going deeper into the forest. I was on top of a bridge and I took the opportunity to hold on tightly to the wall to try to slow myself down. I tried with the little strength I had left and stuck my claws between the rocks that built the structure, but the ground was sliding too much because of the rain and my mother ended up taking control once again.

I quickly thought of some method to regain control and the only thing that came to mind was succumbing to the pain to make my body have to stop to heal. I climbed up the bridge wall as best I could and looking down I begged that when I fell I would break my leg or something so that I could stop my crazy mother. I jumped off the bridge and was effectively immobilized, the rain no longer bothered me inside the river, but I could still see my red eyes. I closed my eyes for a moment and considered granting the victory to my mother, I no longer saw myself able to keep up with her.

I opened my eyes slowly and noticed the moon reflecting in the water next to me and another person... The rain was distorting the image and I didn't realize that the person next to me was not my mother. The drops of water falling on me were interrupted by an umbrella and then the image became clear, she was there, Enid was with me. I raised my gaze as I could and found her watching me with the sweetest smile of all.

The despair I felt mixed with tiredness and having missed her, made me unconsciously start crying. I moved my aching body to get on my knees and hug Enid as best I could, I didn't want to let go although I had no choice but to do so when I remembered that I was being possessed by my mother. What if it was another one of her illusions? The experienced kitsunes were able to create the most reality-like illusions possible, I did not trust.

-Y/N: Stay away - I backed away - I can't be with you right now, I'm a monster with no control.

-Enid: If you think that some fangs and claws are going to keep me from being with you, you are very wrong - she ran to me throwing the umbrella to the side and hugging me tightly - Everything is fine now, Y/N. Stop trying so hard, I'm already here.

-Y/N: - I wrapped my arms around her and buried my face between her neck and her collarbone - You are real - I said relieved not being able to hold back my sobs - You really are here.

-Enid: I couldn't let you continue with this struggle by yourself - she smiled and caressed my face - I'm not going to leave you alone. Do you hear me? You don't have to fear for anything anymore, just breathe and relax.

-Y/N: But my mother-

- Enid: Y/N look at you! - made him see me in the reflection of the water - What do you see?

-Y/N: I see us - she said before looking at her - And my eyes are no longer red.

-Enid: You've done very well - she smiled and stood up extending her hand to help me get up - Let's go to your hotel, you need to rest.

-Y/N: - I nodded - How did you know where I was?

-Enid: The link told me - she smiled shyly - And my inner wolf wanted to meet you again, so I just had to let myself be guided by my instinct - she looked me up and down.

-Y/N: I must look horrible, right?

-Enid: Well... You've grown up - she let out a giggle - and you have a crying face, I thought you Addams didn't.

-Y/N: I haven't cried! - I lied - It's the raindrops...

- Enid: Y/N... You're not fooling me - she smiled and kissed my cheek - It's okay to cry, you have to be able to vent somehow.

-Y/N: - I smiled and couldn't help the urge to hug her - Enid - I hugged her tighter - Stay with me.

-Enid: - she nodded - I have already talked to Wednesday to arrange the matter of the rooms, we will sleep together. Don't worry.

-Y/N: No, may you stay with me forever - I stared at her - I don't want to be without you again, ever. You know I'm not cheesy normally, but the tiredness must be speaking for me... Enid, I will move to San Francisco if necessary. But don't walk away again - I let a tear fall down my cheek - Because I can't... I can't face life's circumstances in the same way. I'm not so strong if I'm not with you.

-Enid: - she started crying too - Oh, and I who had promised myself not to cry... - she wiped away my tears - We are one being when we are together, it has been like that since we created the bond. We are only one half apart, we need each other to be one hundred percent - she looked at me with her eyes crystal clear from the tears - So we will not be separated again - she joined her lips with mine.