Memories

His Pov (Andrew)

"Andrew! Hey!"

One of my friend called out approaching me.

"I am sorry dude."

I've been hearing the word 'sorry', many times today.

Currently, I am in a wedding venue. Not just a wedding venue of someone I know. But someone I loved so much. Promised the world with.

But she end up to someone, opposite of me.

Someone I am totally not.

We actually broke up because she wanted to get marriend and I am still not going to.

She then immediately broke up with me with that reason.

That was 3 years ago when she broke up with me but until now I do still love her but I have to be happy for her.

We knew each other in high school, and become high school sweet heart. Our relationship lasted 9 years.

I was busy making money for our future, and I didn't know I was losing her.

And here I am torturing myself for not keeping her. I was suppose to be that man beside her but I lose..

I feel really heavy right now.

Regrets and frustrations.

Then I end up to the waiting shed, where I first met my ex girlfriend. It was near our school in high school.

I noticed this girl wearing a blue jeans with a black tshirt. She does looks so sad, I mean her eyes.

She sat at the same waiting shed also, looking at the students pass by. I knew by her eyes that she wishes to be as free like those students.

Something in me wanted to do something. But I end up scaring her.

She noticed me looking at her for a long time so I looked away. She then stood up and I dropped the words " You looked so sad".

She didn't answered a word but she was emotionless looking at me.

I didn't know but as she left, I end up going to the nearest department store and buy some chocolates.

As my comfort food whenever I am sad, I eat chocolates. I know most of the girls do that but there were some guys who love it too like me.

I followed her until she went inside the church. I waited until she go outside. I did not went inside it just bring all back all the memories I had with my ex girlfriend.

I looked at the front seat of the church, that's where we prayed that we'll be together forever but at that very front seat is where I will be looking at her marrying another guy.

The guy who'll fulfill the promises I never made to fulfill.

I noticed the girl went out the church, I noticed her eyes were from crying.

"For you.Eat that. And please smile."

I just uttered those words. With pauses.

"I've been looking at you the whole time kanina sa waitingshed and I cannot stand to not do something to make a beautiful girl like you to smile"

She then looked at me with confusion. But geeez, maybe she then thought I was too creepy for following her and giving her this chocolates.

"Anyway? Who the hell are you?"

She asked me, and just made me stop. She had a beautiful voice.

"You can't do that easily to someone, you look creepy and to follow me here also is seriously creepy."

Oh damn it. I did looked like a stalker. I was too creepy. But I was just wanted to make someone feel better and a little friendly also.

"Yes. You did was sweet. But you can only do that to someone you know."

She said again, and left me.

But my feet just made me follow her.

She faced me again.

"Okay. For you to stop following, let me have that."

Then she left me there.

Then that moment I know I did something great. Hoped that girls eyes will change. Not having those sad eyes.

I went hope having those sad memories with my ex. I did loved her and now shes happily married to someone else.

I opened my laptop, scrolled all the pictures we had and erased them one by one. Because I had no time left for us to be back together.

Justin called me 50 times. And had 30.messages, asking where was I.

I am tired. I just wanna close my eyes.

"I love you" a girl kissed me in the forehead. While tears dropped from her eyes.

"I love you"

"I love you"

"I love you"

It echoes in my head like a tunnel.

I opened my eyes. It was a dream.

I don't know if it was a bad dream, because I feel sad.

I feel so sad. And heavy.

What does it means?