Emotion
Rise was not an overly emotional person. He rarely cried, or that he almost never cried. Even when he was being smashed all over the place and that his whole body was screaming pain, he did not even shed tears once.
He was quite tough, both emotionally and physically.
However, sometimes there was a part of him that seemed not included in this point. His experience from before gave him a deeper scar than he would have liked.
"Damn." Rise bit his lips, and he wanted to wipe his tears and hold them back. They were uncontrollable, soaking his already blood-soaked face with tears.
I hate this.
He hated being vulnerable. He despised being weak.
What he was crying for seemed trivial, but Rise found that so pressing he preferred dying brutally over dying because of starvation.