Chapter 48

GABRIELA

Time passed a little faster than it had in recent weeks, and the truth is I was glad it did. When the bell finally rang for break, I was the last one to leave class, I didn't want to take half the exercise home if I could finish it now. When I leave, I find Alex waiting for me and as has been normal in recent weeks, seeing his smile makes me smile too. 

"Hello my queen, I thought I was going to have to come in to help you with whatever you were doing." He said with a big smile "I don't think you would want to do an exercise that maybe you have no idea about." I responded "I may not have the slightest idea, but I could at least try to help you." 

"You are very good when you want." I admitted with a big smile on my face. "I know, but I reserve that part more for you than for others." He assured, "Then thank you, but I think it's a part everyone should know, especially Sara, maybe that way we can fix something." 

"I don't care about Sara or what happens to her with me, I partly deserve it, the only thing that matters to me is that you are okay and you don't end up killing me." We started laughing, because that was true. It's been a while since I wanted to kill him or anything, more than anything because he loves me, and I loved him. I wasn't going to do anything to him that could hurt him. 

"Can I ask you a question my queen?" He asked "Sure, what's up?" I asked, "What would you answer if I told you about being my girlfriend?" he questioned and I really didn't expect it, I expected any question like that. The truth is I would answer yes, but I felt it wasn't the time, not for now. "Well, I think it's not time yet." 

"Why?" He asked "Because something tells me so." I said sincerely, "But when you tell me that..." he began and I nodded, because I knew where he was going. "It's true, I really love you, but something tells me now isn't the time." 

"Well, know I will always be waiting for you." He answered and I denied, "I don't think you can last that long, you're one of those guys who has thousands of girls around him." I responded and he rolled his eyes. "Maybe, but there's only one I love, and I have that girl in front of me." 

That made me feel happier than I usually felt with him, I don't know, in a way I was glad he didn't notice other girls who were prettier than me. It took us a couple of minutes to get to the place where we always were, mostly because it was one of the only places where the sun always shone, and I loved it. 

When we arrived, I noticed Sara didn't make any strange face, which seemed strange to me. I looked at Marcos and saw he's smiling at me, which could be Sara decided to stop being angry or I don't know. I don't know how Marcos managed it, but I'm grateful. 

"Gabriela, do you think we can talk alone for a moment?" she asked and I nodded. Sara got up and it didn't take long for me to follow her. We separated enough so they wouldn't hear what we were going to talk about. It took her a couple of minutes to speak, but I'm going to wait for her to speak, after all, she was the one who wanted to speak. 

"I'm going to give him a chance." She blurted out, "And what is this change about? If it can be known." I asked, because even though I imagine Marcos has something to do with this, I wanted to know what the real reason. "Marcos told me something that half convinced me and told me I should pay more attention when you were together and he was right, you look happy with him." 

"I am, I don't know why you insisted I wasn't, honestly." I said "Forgive me, okay? I know I acted like a complete bitch, but it's something I couldn't understand, after everything he did to you and you were forgiving him? I couldn't believe it; much less could I believe what he said was true." 

"Well, yes, it is." I assured her, because if there was one thing more than clear, it was that Alex loved me more than anything. "Yes, I've noticed, but it still seems strange to me after how you treated him, you are now so together. Are you already a couple?" She asked "What? No, we are not, why do you say that." 

"Because that's how you behave, I thought you were already together." she responded, shrugging her shoulders. "Well, we're not." I assured "And what exactly are you waiting for?" She asked, "Nothing, why?" I questioned, "Because by giving him the opportunity to doubt and pay attention, I see he loves you; he really loves you and not like all those guys who want to be your partner. He's different from the rest." 

"I already knew that; I knew it from the first moment I met him." I admitted "Then go with him and Gabriela, it seems you love him too much." She assured, "Now are you going to tell me the opposite of what you told me yesterday?" I asked incredulously, "Well yeah, I'm going to tell you how I think Marcos and Carlota tell you." 

"Didn't I get it from them now you are also going to join them?" I laughed "Well yes, I sense he's going to make you happy, but forgive me for acting like a bitch this last month." she apologized and I denied, because I didn't need her to apologize. "You acted like a bitch, but you are forgiven." 

"Thank you, now let's go before that guy comes for you." We started walking alongside the rest, we sat down and talked quietly for a while. I watched as Sara watched me and Alex, and I honestly don't know what she was expecting to find different or what she was trying to discover, but I decided I was going to ignore her, I would let her think whatever she was thinking. 

"Hey Gabriela, do you have class with Professor Rial today?" Sara asked and I nodded. "Then you are lucky." She said and I frowned, because I have no idea why. "Why?" I asked "Because he didn't come, from what I heard he's sick or something." 

"And how did you find out?" I asked, because as far as I knew, she didn't have class with him. "I heard it at some point in the hallway, and I remembered now." she assured, "Then I can start making some designs I have to make for drawing class." 

Just then the bell rings and we start to get up to go to class. We had already said goodbye to Marcos and the girls, and as is becoming customary, Alex accompanied me to my class. Before I entered, he stopped me, which made me look at him strangely. 

"What happen?" I asked, "I want to give you this to read." He said, handing me some kind of letter. "What is it?" I asked, "A letter, if you want to read it, do with it whatever you want." Alex assured "And why are you giving it to me now?" I questioned "Because I think it's a good time." 

I could tell he was kind of nervous and I have no idea why, or why he was giving me a letter, but I would read it, there was no doubt about it and since I didn't have class right now, I would take the opportunity to read it. 

"Okay, I'll read it." He kissed me on the forehead and left. I went into class and waited for them to come to take roll before going outside, since it wasn't colder than today, well, for normal people at least, I would go outside to sunbathe and read the letter from Alex, for what I'm curious about what was inside. 

When the roll call was done, I went out to one of those places where I had the calm I needed. I ran into one of the gardeners as told him this was a great place and beautiful. The place was quite spacious, with short, deep green grass. It was surrounded by trees and had a small lake in the center. If I was lucky, when I came, I could see some animal, once I even saw a fawn. They use the lake to drink and I tried to take photos of them while making as little noise as possible. 

It didn't take me too long to get there even though the road was a little long, but I had been here long enough to know which way to go. As soon as I arrived, I sat down leaning against the only tree where the sun would shine and I took out the letter to read it. 

Well, my queen, first of all I hope you give it a chance and don't throw it away before reading it. (irony) 

With the jokes aside, I know you're wondering why I wrote this letter and I can imagine the look on your face as soon as I give it to you, but I hope I manage to take away that fear I'm not able to get rid of by talking to you, with this I don't mean anything, trust me, I just know it's difficult for you at certain points to trust me. 

I want to tell you I love you. I love you like I have never loved anyone. From the first day I saw you I knew you were the person I would always love, and is true, I loved you from the first time I saw you and I fell more in love with you the day our hands touched. I think until that moment you hadn't noticed me, but as I told you before, the first week I already noticed you. 

I remember that day as if it were this morning when I was going to get something from class, I don't remember what and I saw you were picking up the books from the floor. I didn't hesitate to help you and as soon as you looked at me, I got lost in those brown eyes of yours, I always loved them. Since that day, it can be said I haven't lost sight of you, something like a stalker you would say, and it wasn't my intention for you to feel that way, at any time. 

The months I spent with you were the best of my life, it may sound corny or like I just took it from a movie, which is possible since it's said in them, but I'm serious, I have never spoken so clearly. serious in my life, I know it and hope you know it, you know me like no one else knows me and I hope what you know about me you like it or at least you don't dislike it. But like everything beautiful, there comes a time when it ends. Don't scold me later for this, but I have to tell you, so I'll feel better about myself, I'm serious, it will be the last time I bring up the subject. 

As I told you, everything beautiful comes to an end. Unfortunately for me, I didn't get to fully enjoy our moment. Don't ask me why I believed Paula, I think more than anything it was out of jealousy. I envied the relationship you and Marcos have, I know it sounds pathetic, but it's hard to describe your relationship. Everyone who saw you together said you made a great couple, and it's true, he would deserve you better than I deserve you. Now I know you're like siblings, but at that time, it wasn't very clear to me. 

The point is, forgive me Gabriela, forgive me for all the harm I have done to you. I know I have been a stupid asshole to believe what Paula told me without first asking you, you know my intelligence cannot be equal to yours, but everything refers to you makes me feel alive Gabriela, like I have never felt before. 

I have always noticed something was missing in my life, I never knew what it was until I saw you in front of me, at that moment, everything fell into place in my world. I love you Gabriela, I loved you and I will love you until the end of my days. I swear to you the day we end up together, or at least I hope it happens, you will have made me the happiest man in the entire universe, and although I imagine you are thinking I'm exaggerated, it's true, I wouldn't lie to you in this moment nor in what I feel for you. 

I'm sure you have many more guys who want to be in a relationship with you and they are probably better than I ever will be for you, but I want it to be clear to you, I will do everything in my power to make you happy, I will give you everything whatever you want and in case we come back and you decide it's not what you want I will let you go, the only thing I want is for you to be well and happy. 

I think this letter is a bit long, that wasn't my intention. I hope you didn't get bored reading it and helped you resolve those doubts, and I hope you forgive me for everything I did to you a long time ago, I really am sorry and I will do whatever you want if you forgive me. 

I love you beautiful, with all my soul. 

Alex 

  I had been crying for a while, because why fool me, this was the best letter I had received in my life. I love this guy and nothing was going to stop me from being his girlfriend. I was ready and there would be nothing in this world that was going to separate us. 

I read the letter about three more times before the bell rang and I left for class. They were the slowest classes in my entire life, but they finally passed. I quickly gathered everything and was going to go pick Alex up from his class. Apparently, he was coming to my class. I quickened my pace and as soon as I reached him, I kissed him. I couldn't keep this to myself any longer. I wanted everyone to know I loved this guy like I had never loved anyone in my life, and even though at first, he didn't seem to understand anything, he soon continued with the kiss until he separated me from him a little to see my face. 

"Hey, what's this about?" He asked with a frown and confusion "Because I love you, I love you like I have never loved anyone and I want to spend my life with you Alex. I'm ready." I admitted "What?" He asked, surprised. "I want to be your girlfriend, Alex." 

Now he was the one who kissed me. I didn't mean it as a joke, I want to be his girlfriend. No one in my life had ever told me things like what he said to me, or maybe, I don't know. The only thing I'm sure of is, his were the only ones that mattered to me, there was no one as important as he was and no one could even keep up with him. We separated and Alex hugged me, which I didn't hesitate to return. 

"I love you my love, you have made me the happiest man in the universe." He assured, "And you have made me happy, and you have been forgiven for a long time. I hope it relieved you." I said sincerely, "It did, but we must go because Marcos and your siblings must be worried about you not showing up." 

"Well, they don't have worry so much because where I am, I'm well taken care of." I responded with a big smile on my face, "Yeah." We kissed and went to Marcos, but Alex had to leave first because Marcos was with my siblings and I didn't want anyone in my family to find out yet, I wanted to tell them and not let them find out from other people.