Chapter 5: CONFESSION

Spending the afternoon with him is better than yesterday. It's still a surprise that I am comfortable stating my life with this stranger. It's cool that there is someone whom I can share my sentiments with. Good to know that there is someone who is as weird as me. We got along so easily, and I still can't believe that I am showing him the real RM. Did I already win from my system? Did I go out of my door, not leaving everything behind? Perhaps Michael has the key after all. I am wishing that he has it. He is the only person I want to be with right now.

As time goes by, Michael and I became close friends. We spent every afternoon in his so-called music paradise. We date, a friendly one. I enjoy being with him. We sing, we laugh at all hearts, and then keep quiet for a while. We stare at each other and laugh again. Let's not forget that he also plays the guitar and sings unwinding songs. I can't get over his angelic voice. He can sing every genre. I'm jealous. I hope I have a beautiful voice as well.

Sometimes, we decide to do nothing but to stare at the bright, blue sky and think about anything without talking to each other. After which, we write about what happened for the day. Remember when I talked about my journal? Well, I found out that he has one, too. He loves writing about his thoughts and outlooks about whatever will come into his mind.

We often exchange and read each other's masterpieces. This guy is incredible! I never imagined that I have a guy version. He is like my living journal. Sometimes, he creates tones and adds notes to my writings while reading it. Yes, he is also a composer. So perfect, right? I am betting that every girl will fall for this guy. Am I?

"Did I ever tell you that you have a nice voice?" I asked while sitting down, enjoying his music, and appreciating the nature.

"No one ever told me before," he answered.

"Now you know." I laughed.

He stared at me.

"Did I ever tell you that you're beautiful?"

"No one ever told me before." I giggled.

"Now you know." And we laughed out loud again.

"No, seriously. Did you know that when I saw you standing here with your blank face the first time we met, I am already attracted to you? Not just that. I felt something different when I stared at you." His eyes transformed from joyful to serious. I assume it's the same thing I also felt that day.

"Okay. Seeing me with a blank and weird face is something that attracts you?" I tried to change the vibe because I felt a little tense when his serious face appeared. I am not afraid. I am just a little nervous. Goosebumps are already all over my body.

He stopped talking for a moment, but his eyes were glued to me. Do I have dirt on my face? I wanted to ask him that as a joke, but it's not right for this kind of situation.

"I don't know. Why do you think I let myself in and asked you to do the same? Remember when I told you I want to know you better?" I nodded. "The night before that, I can't sleep. I was so excited to see you again. And now, the more I get to know you, the stronger my feeling is for you. Before, I was confused. I blamed the world for playing with me. Knowing a girl like you is so cool not because we are always on the same page, but because your uniqueness is also impeccable."

He paused for a moment.

"I don't know if it's the right time, but I don't care anymore." He continued.

"I'm not getting it, Michael." I hope this is something I want to hear from him over time. I am just unsure if I am ready for a new beginning. I do not want to presume that this friendship is somewhat different, but...

"I love you, RM."