Chapter 7( My family)

At the time when I first saw that light, I was hoping for a miracle, a path, salvation, or Redemption. But I ended up in hell. This Is what I thought till now. But looking back at it I can think more clearly,

First, there was this strange calmness whenever I am near that women 'Aria' and the way she looks at me and the way she cares for me, the way she treats me gently, it is like a 'mother' treating her own kin and that bum smacking devil that goes around smacking bums of baby, might after all not be the bum smacking devil I thought he is. Cause the way she cares for 'aria' and the way she gently looks towards her is like they are a couple.

And then there is feeding, bathing, clothing me, the all might not be after all restraints that they put on me but care that they do for me.

But those weird faces and noises that they make I have no excuse for that.

And after listening to those stories about the war I can be sure that that battle was not my dream or imagination but rather truth and I was part of that reality.

So thinking about it all and seeing it in a normal way I can only reach one conclusion, or maybe two , or might be three… no let's leave out the fourth one that was my mistake so the final three conclusions that I can pitch are

One: that after that battle someone did something to me so that I am not dead after doing 'that' but in return, I have been turned into a newborn baby.

Second that someone has performed necromancy or forbidden spell to incase my soal in this baby body. But is there anyone powerful that they could play with my soul accept him and if it is him why would he do something this illogical it is totally against nature?

And third and the most likely solution is that my soul, which was pleading for redemption and salvation has been granted a chance to pay for my sins, thus I have been REINCARNATED as a baby in the house of this couple.

But all these answers leaves a very big question in my mind that is if through any way my soul and memory are intact after performing 'that' then only a powerful existence, that is more powerful than 'him' has to do this, as this all requires breaking the laws of nature and to do that one must be above the laws that bind the mortals.

Who would want to that for me and why??? And if I ever met him what will he ask in return for saving me?

As much I liked the answer of my some unanswered question, more the no. of question came, and with them, they brought a terrible headache that I was not able to tolerate.

So with that my feeble body started to cry … and with each flowing tear my heart's pent-up emotions also flowed out and with that, I was now clear-headed but was still crying.

Aria started to console me, she stared at me worriedly to know the reason why I was crying and over her head, the bum-smacking devil was staring intensely at me.

As if it was pre-decided they both started with their routine

[ ah ah aho ho hoho ho ho little alan little like why are u crying ah ah aha hhahhh]

[Little little papa and mummy are here, see ha hah ah hhahhhh aaahhh]

They both started making ridiculous faces and strange voices… but stranger than their faces and voices was the fact these things were strangely having a calming effect on me as I stopped crying and looked up to both of them,

Both of their eyes were filled with relief seeing me stop cry … both their faces had a happy smile and both of them intensely staring at me as if they take their eyes off me I will vanish like air.

Previously when I would see all this I would be thinking that there is some way that they meant to torture me to make their plan they are staring at me but now after all these days I can clearly see affection and love in their eyes, concern from the dark circle under their eyes and pleasant happiness from the smile on their faces.

Yes, I could say for sure these are my parents and now that all of this was clear I removed all the useless chain of thoughts that were hanging upon my mind and decided to start afresh.

Yes, that is the right thing to do, I should start to view them in new light…

As they are my mother and father…

With whom I will live my life…

And this time it will be a happy life…

I thought to myself as all the way in which I could have atoned for my sins, I could have gained salvation became clear.

These ways were not leading to hell, to punishment … but this new life was the way to atone for all them… to fulfill my all desire … and to finally have a family that I will protect and I will not lose them in this life.

With that, I closed my eyes… reviewed all the thoughts that were there…

The war ….

The blood ….

The sacrifices…

The dark sun…

The endless nights...

The pain… the hope ….

The powerlessness….

The final cry…

I led them to roll in mind for a minute and then let them flow at the end of my mind and as I opened my eyes they were now not filled with question or answer. They were filled with just one thing hope and determination to lead a happy new life that God has offered me.

And in this life, I will not repeat any of my mistakes… I will not let anyone close to me feel pain… I will become strong but this time not just alone but with "My family"