Chapter 25 (New World)

What is mana??

This question has been engraved into my mind since I came to this world.

I know it is an essential part of everything and anything and has been in existence forever.

And in the current era, only the one that can control mana can have their own freedom and dreams, rest are just pebbles flowing through the river.

It has been 10 rays since the first time that is got the idea of having my breathing suggested to a rhythm similar to my previous life to simulate the way in which I used to circulate mana in my past life

But all the tries till now have been proven wrong...

I even tried to change my posture many times. sometimes laying face down and sometimes bending to left or right but all seems to be none.

It really seems humans are the species that truly couldn't have the opportunity to wield mana before at least the age of 4. and this was also said to be a prodigious child of royalty who had a special kind of body constitution making him some kind of Genius by birth.

Even if I could control the clouds and call forth the lightning what is meaning for them if I couldn't even move huh.

I sighed calming my tensed nerves, these past few rays I have been overly exerting this body to limit, even thinking requires a lot of energy, and me going on and on nonstop, trying to do this and that till I collapse from existing only to find powers that couldn't be even used, what use does that accomplish.

I had finally thought to leave this topic till the age at least I can walk but that would mean excepting that I am a week and I could only a path that all walk.

I again rearranged my thoughts and thought about the problem from many different angles

what was I lacking? what is a feeling of mana? how can I feel it? and if I feel it what to do then? and what are my next steps?

thinking over and over many questions that pounded my mind, I came to a different conclusion.

If I could just feel mana for one time if I could grab the feeling of mana then there could be hope.

But even if I see another fight with mana I could not grab the feeling of mana, so if I could just have someone directly act mana on me I could feel the mana, and then all problems would be solved.

thus I began a plan again, I could not hope for someone to attack me using mana so I could only allow myself to have healing magic applied on me so I could feel the mana and also be safe.

I have already seen my mother using Mana in a way to heal some minor wounds when their disciplines fight so I thought to get injured.

and my plan would start as soon as the mother returns and opens the door.

I waited for quite some time, I positioned myself on the edge of the bed and was in the perfect posture to roll down and get injured, seeing down of bed even this distance feels large, but I have heard the bones of the baby are more flexible and thus doesn't just snap so I should be safe fall without major injury.

As I was seeing down on the bed, suddenly I heard a click on the door lock and that was my signal, without thinking much I jumped down, as I was falling I could feel my heart go wild and I let my dam lose even before touching the ground I was crying.

Hearing my loud cry mother ran and with a swoop lifted me up, I could feel hot on my elbow, and with water-filled eyes, I saw mother hand starting to glow Green, and seeing this I tightly shut my eyes and tried to feel the mana that was injected through the elbow to heal.

It had a cool sensation followed by a calm nature, it was like diving in a cold pond on a hot summer day, I focused my all attention to see how this cold sensation traveled through me and soon I realized something, a crucial piece that was missing till now in my puzzle suddenly appeared in front of me, I could suddenly see the whole picture and it looked beautiful.

Mana has been already a part of me, without me realizing it was already inside my blood, bones, skin, hairs it was part of me and I was part of it, even I could not control it has just been in a dormant state and the mana supplied by my mother forced some of my mana to move to tissue wound and started to repair it.

And with this new realization and new feelings that I experienced just now, I opened my eyes again, my eyes were no longer wet, I wasn't bleeding anymore, my heart was already calm and with my eyes open I saw a new world, all around me were colorful particles, floating in there mary way, disappearing and reappearing in front of me, it was exciting and exotic, it was truly magical.

[Sigh, you how did you fell down] asked my mother to me. I turned my head to face mother and the scene I saw was mystical, unlike anything I have ever seen before,

In my past life, I just breathed to fill my core and that was it, all my actions were already amplified by mana naturally without me doing anything.

But seeing mother I could tell she is on a whole other level, mana was swirling around mother, without her doing anything mana was entering her body automatically through her skin,

she had a worried expression on her face and was carefully examining me to check if there is another injury or not,

but currently, my thoughts were in disarray, even if I could have a voice at this moment I don't know the words to describe this situation, it was looking like mana that was all around her, was bowing towards her and was ready to bend to her will and whims.

this situation was indescribable. Who are you? could I do the same?

But on second thought this life might be not boring after all.

Thinking this I broke into a smile, and seeing me my mother also smiled, and all the mana that was swirling around her dispersed in the air as if it never was there.