Chapter 11: Part 2 – Admitting the Truth

= Sarah POV =

Chris looked up at me from the bed. Here eyes stared at me with such an unreadable expression. Was she upset with me?

I put my hand out before she could say anything.

"Chris, I have a confession. I know what you want from me, and I'll do it, I have to uphold my end of the bargain…but the thing is, I've been hiding something from you, for our whole friendship, and I…I need to be honest with you before we go any further" I said nervously.

"No way, you've told me everything. Even stuff I really really…really didn't want to know" Chris replied and snorted "Like TMI Sarah about the stuff with your Exes"

"Well, that's the thing. I lied. All that stuff, about how amazing the sex was, and how good I was in bed. I lied ok? I don't know how to have sex well. I seem to be, what they call, a dead fish in bed" I said and bit my lip, looking away from her and rubbing my arm nervously.

"What are you talking about? How hard is it to have sex with a guy? Aren't they usually the ones 100% into it?" Chris asked, folding her arms.

"Well, not really when I start laughing in the middle of it or keep changing positions cause my leg gets cramps or gets itchy…and sometimes the balls were -" I started.

"Omg please stop. Please. I did not know this. I could have lived the rest of my life NOT knowing this. Why are you telling me this?" Chris asked standing up and walking over to me.

I backed up "Because I think you want sex, I mean you seem like the next request you're going to make is to ask me to have sex, and you know I'm thrilled, I really…honestly want to have sex with you, in fact, the whole contract, in the beginning, was so that we could… I mean I wanted you, to read between the lines" I tried to explain.

I backed up so far that my bum hit Chris' dressing table. Chris casually stood there akimbo, trapping me yet again, between her body and a hard place.

"Let me get this straight...or as straight as this situation can be. You wanted to have sex with me, not because you want to have sex, but because you are looking for some kind of sex education?" Chris asked, her eyes narrowing.

"Yes" I said. Gosh, if it was so easy for her to understand, I should have just said this from the start.

Chris blinked, then stepped back " No. Are you serious?"

I clasped my hands together "Yes! You got it. I'm bad at sex, ok? And I thought, that since you are so good at everything, maybe I could learn how to have sex from you, and then maybe I could try dating girls, and have sex with them because all my male relationships have failed because I am a sex failure!" I said placing my hand on my chest as my heart was beating so fast from blurting all that out " There, I said it ok! I've tried everything, and I can't believe I'm admitting this, but at 25 years old, I still suck!"

"Hey" Chris said and I could feel her hand on my shoulder "Aren't you just being really hard on yourself? Maybe you and your previous partners just needed to find a certain…groove? Maybe you weren't in sync with them or something"

"No, you don't understand. Every single person I have dated has told me that they couldn't finish, or they cheated on me because they couldn't find satisfaction with me. I just wanted to finally be honest. I feel like this entire time, I've been making a mess of things, and these are my honest feelings. All of – wait. Chris. Are you laughing? Are you laughing at me?" I asked as I looked up and saw Chris' shoulders start to shake from what looked to be suppressed laughter.

Chris backed off and burst into a hearty laugh.

"Oh my god. Sarah. Sarah what the hell?" Chris said and sank to the ground, holding my knees like they were life support " I'm so sorry, I tried to be supportive, but this is just too funny.

Sarah… you did all this, just so that you could what, understudy as a lesbian? Take a lesbian trail course with what, an A-class student? Are you insane?" Chris asked, looking up at me through tears.

"Well, aren't you an A-Class student? The entire time we were at the university, you had your pick of the campus. Everyone came out of our dorm room after a session with you, literally glowing! –"

"A session? Do you consider my relationships sexual sessions? Sarah sex is not some kind of lab session where you study the biology of your partner as if they were a specimen on a petri dish. You do realise when they say two people have Chemistry, it's not about atoms and molecules right" Chris interrupted and released me to wipe the tears from her eyes " Omg…I have totally overestimated you, my dear Sarah" Chris sighed.

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