Chapter 17

I get a crush more than a crush

Almost love

Make me feel high everytime I think about us

I hummed as I made my way to my first class for the morning; AP biology. The class was full, the only available seat was next to a white blonde boy.

I remembered him from last week. I've sat next to him before.

''Hi'' I said taking a seat

''Hey'' he gave me a sweet smile "you again?"

''Yeah, how are you?"

''I've been better"

I started bringing out my books from my bag

"So what grade are you?" I asked

''12, what about you?''

''11''

He looked confused

''How come we're in the same class?"

''I got enough credits to graduate I'll be graduating with your set. Well hopefully. The principal is against it still"

''Cool''

''Yeah it is I'm so excited to get out of this prison''

''Same here, so what's the name gorgeous?'

''Amanda. Amanda Watson''

''What? Like you're the daughter of John Emmanuel Watson?"

Oh no not again

"Yeah why?''

I already knew why

''Look Amanda you seem like a really nice girl but I've heard stories about your dad, especially how he hates white people and he doesn't like boys around you. I don't want any trouble''

He stood up, grabbed his things and went to another table. All the seats were full but he shared with someone else. That's how badly he wanted to get away from me..

This always happens. People treat me differently because of my dad.

The only thing I don't get is the bad things he's done. I've been kept in the dark for so long about that. I'll probably discuss it with Tyler later

My thoughts were interrupted when the teacher walked in

''Good morning class'' he greeted

''Good morning sir'' everyone chorused except me anyway. i was too much in a bad mood to speak.

''Today we'll be learning about Adaptation. Everyone open their textbooks''

I opened my book and stared at it but I wasn't focused. I wasn't listening and I don't think I'm going to.

I'm tired of it I just want to be normal. I want people to like me

I want friends

I want to be invited to parties

I want to have a normal conversation with someone

I want to be able to tell someone my name without them being scared

This is the reason why I like Harry. I feel like I don't have to pretend around him regardless of who I am

I zoned out for a whole hour. I was relieved when I heard the sound of the bell

I got up and packed my books. I grabbed my bag and left class going straight to my locker

I started putting my books in until

''Well well well If it isn't Virgin Mary''

I recognized that voice

''What do you want Brooke?''

I turned around to face her and her posse

''Oh nothing just came to say hi. You know maybe confess my sins''

They laughed like what she said was the funniest thing on earth

''What's so funny?'' I asked

''Well everything''

''The only thing funny here is you''

''Aww that's cute, almost got me. Your outfit is nice, where'd you get it? A thrift shop?''

I was wearing a blue short dashiki with black heel boots. My curly hair was packed in a ponytail.

''No I got it from a boutique, where I get all my clothes from"

''What do they sell? Clothes for old people? Looks old fashioned to me''

''It's called a dashiki. Its an African attire but you're too dumb to know that''

She gasped

''Did you just insult me. How rude. May God forgive you''

''Just leave me alone''

I was too tired and frustrated to talk. Brooke being here only made it worse

If not that I had a reputation to live up to, I would have sucker punched her in the face a long time ago

You see Brooke's the white 'it girl' you see in movies. Well, they have one in every high school. She's super pretty, long brown hair, great but slutty fashion sense, changes her nails every weekend, hosts the best parties in schools... You know the deal.

''Good I don't wanna talk to you and your stupid gangsuki anyway''

"Its called a dashiki!''

''Whatever, lets go girls''

They cat walked out of my sight. I walked down the hallway to my next class which was music.

*

"Awwn" Keisha cooed

"I'm telling you guys, it was the best night of my life" I said

Janet, Keisha and I were in the library. We ditched class just to come talk about my date with Harry

"You like him then?" Janet asked me

"Yes. I know its too soon but I just have this feeling I can't explain. At first I thought it was because he's cute"

"Sexy" Janet cut in

"Very sexy" Keisha added

I rolled my eyes

"Anyway" I continued "that night showed me it was beyond that"

"Awww" Keisha cooed

"I felt so free around him, like I could do anything and he wouldn't judge me"

"What about Jeremy?" Janet asked

I shrugged

"I don't know" I said honestly "he's in the past now"

"Is it that easy to forget someone you've been with for three years?" Keisha asked

"I will always care about Jeremy but being with him was mostly for my parents. He's the perfect boyfriend. His dad is a wealthy pastor, he's a christian, he's got great grades. Definitely the type of guy you want to take home to mom and dad

"And Harry?" Janet questioned

"Trouble. That's what his whole demeanor screams. Your typical bad boy, the kind that my mom always warned me to stay away from but I just can't. I think I really like Harry"

"Aww" Keisha said wiping a fake tear off her cheek "they grow up so fast"

I playfully punched her

"Just be careful" Janet said "what you're feeling for Harry might be a mild attraction"

"Meaning?"

"Meaning it might fade very soon. I mean its normal,when you meet a new guy that's great, even your boyfriend is suddenly boring."

"That's not the case here"

She held her hands up in surrender

"Just saying. You may not really like Harry. You've been with Jeremy for three years then suddenly he's in the past? I remember the first time you guys took a break, you cried for months but its different now because Harry's in the picture"

"He fucking cheated on her" Keisha said

"You know what never mind "

Janet and Keisha proceeded to talk about a senior Janet had her eyes on but I couldn't be bothered

My phone vibrated and it was a text from Harry

Harry: hi angel

Me: hey, how are you?

Harry; I'm good. When can I see you again?

Me: I don't know

Harry: how bout you come over to my workplace this afternoon. You could bring your friends so it won't be too suspicious just in case your brother's there

Me: Ooohhh I like it. Where do you work?

Harry: the underground

Me: oh I love that place. I'll be there at four

Harry: can't wait

"Guys" I called

"Yeah" they answered

"What do you think about having lunch at 'the underground'?"