Story of my Love life

Excerpt from Johan's Journal

1 0 / 0 6 / 2 0 0 7

My dad just got be a diary, I mean a journal and I am super pumped about it. There are so many things to write about and I don't know where to start from. I think people normally start with live so I'll write about that.

I met this girl today and even though she was totally cold with me I'm smitten. I heard her name's Lisa, she's like an angel 😇. Even though I met her a few hours ago I think she's the love 💓 💗 💕 💞 of my life.

0 5 / 0 3 / 2 0 1 5

My whole world has always revolved around her, she's the sun and I am but just a lowly planet revolving around her. I have always been in love 😍 🥰 ❤ 💖 🥰 😍 with her but never said a word because I know she will never accept me, I am not fit to even be in her presence. My love for her is so much that it makes me burn 🔥, it overwhelms me and it burns brighter than the seven stars 🌟 🎆 🎇 . Even if being with her for a moment will damn me for all eternity I would still go for it, she controls my heart and me, myself and if anything she wants I will gladly do for her even if it to kill.

I can not live a day without seeing her. She is the love of my life but I have to let her go because there is no point obsessing about something I can not have, lest I become a stalker because there is no future for us. Goodbye Lisa, I will always love you, you are forever with me my fairy 🧚‍♀️. Bye 😥 😔 😟 🙁 .

0 9 / 0 3 / 2 0 1 5

I found a fairy 🧚‍♀️, not Lisa but another woman. She reminds me of Lisa so much 😊 😃 .I think I have found my life partner.

Her name is Irina Rose 🌹. It is a bit of a strange name but strange, unique names are cute I guess 😍. I asked her for what it meant and she said it means ' pure beauty ', and when you look at her name and her as a person the name is quite suitable. She and I look compatible and I might just ask her out.

If I ask her out, it's probably only because she reminds me of Lisa. Lisa is unattainable for me but Rose isn't. It seems like I'm a bad person but I don't care 🤷 I'll be whatever I want to be 😜.

I might even later on ask her to be my wife, she is suitable. She is from a good home and is not much more powerful than me in terms of family. I might just love her like I did Lisa, nah not possible.

1 5 / 0 6 / 2 0 1 0

I asked her out and for some reason she was shocked 😲. She even said and I quote "Are you sure you want to ask me out and not Lisa". How dare she 😤 compare herself to LISA, a common peasant comparing itself to the QUEEN.

If not that Lisa pays me no attention do you think I would look your way. You're not even fit to lick my shoes.

0 1 / 0 7 / 2 0 1 1

I think I am starting to fall for Rose. At first I thought she was just good wife material, since I'm from an aristocratic family and would need a good and smart wife plus she looks like Lisa. Rose is fun, funny, beautiful and smart and I think I just could be falling for her.

2 9 / 1 2 / 2 0 1 4

I met Lisa today, like face to face 🤯 🤭 🥳 🤩. She says she loves me and I am happy but what about Rose. She's going to be heartbroken 💔 that is for sure, Lisa is the one we are talking about here, THE LISA. When I am with Lisa, I forget all about Rose, everybody and thing, with my mind filled completely with Lisa. She is just so mesmerising with her angelic face 😍, melodic voice 🎶 and overall superbness.

3 1 / 1 2 / 2 0 1 4

Lisa told me something today and I think she might be right. It is Rose's good luck to be with me. I am too good for her and besides I do not need to settle for second best, but best. When best is available why go for second best. Since Lisa is available why go for Rose. Lisa all the way, no time for baggage, no time to waste.

0 1 / 0 1 / 2 0 1 5

Rose caught me and Lisa together 😬, all loved up 😚😙, and I'm feeling pangs of guilt. After all we've been together for 5 years and I have some affections for her. I probably should have broken up with her before now but she is not a high priority, not when Lisa is here, my Lisa will have all my attention. I mean she looked my way and I will not lose the opportunity to make Lisa mine.

Rose looks distraught and even though I feel bad, I have to end this and so I do. In order to make her forget about me and have zero thoughts of 'Jose' ( Rose + Johan ) I decided to act mean, bullyish and as a scum, I hope I do not scare Lisa. I bullshitted something about how we were too perfect and that was not okay, how we complement each other so much that it's nauseating. I spewed a lot of trash, said some insults and hurtful words.

I'm an ass, a bad guy. I know that but I can't give her hope not when my heart beats for her no more but for Lisa. It had always secretly beated for Lisa, so this was bound to happen, if only I could settle it better since I Rose holds a tiny place in my heart ❤. But what is done is done and Rose is now a thing of the past. There's no more Rose in Johan Johnson's life but only a Lisa Hope.

On a lighter note, Lisa would be a better fit, a better wife. She'll fit me better and after 2 years we will get engaged 💍☺, married and then live happily ever after 😊.

0 2 / 0 1 / 2 0 1 5

I'm with Lisa but my mind is with Rose. What's going on? Is this some kind of voodoo? Could it be that I was wrong? That I no longer love Lisa but love Rose? NO! I refuse to believe that 😤. I 💯 love Lisa.

Perhaps I should go visit Rose so I understand my strange feelings.