Feelings

"Youre safe now," he said against my hair. Dimitri was still holding me and i had to admit i was loving it. I looked up and stared into his dark brown eyes. My heart fluttered. There was a tightening in my chest. I really had to stop feeling this way about him. He was my teacher for crying out loud.

He was 7 years older than me and honestly i dont want him losing his job. He might be hard on me at times and he can also be gentle. His life is probably easier without me in it, I thought. I immediately cast out that thought.

I turned and walked into the water. It felt cold but it was nice to feel it falling on my skin. I lifted my hands and removed my shirt. I dropped it on the floor and began to unbutton my shorts. I did the same.

I turned and closed my eyes allowing my hair to soak in the water. Suddenly another body came up to in front of me. I opened my eyes and gasped. It was him...Dimitri. I stared up at him. He was a giant compared to my 5"3 frame. Being 6"7 has a lot of perks i guess

"You-" he put a finger on my lip to silence me. I just stared. His brown eyes were so dark and i wanted to just dive in. He didnt seem fazed by anything but i was well aware and my heart was doing somersaults in my chest. My feelings for him were so strong. I didnt want to admit to anyone, not to Lissy. Or him. Or anyone not even myself. But i dont think its a crush anymore.

These feelings were too strong to be a just a crush. His hands were on the wall behind me and he was looking down at me. He was becoming soaked but i guess that was goal right? Right? It had to be. I looked down and hid my expression. He was oblivious to the conflict going on in my head.

I just stared at the floor. Our breathing and the falling water were the only two things audible in the stall. He tipped my chin upwards so now he was seeing my face and i also couldnt look back down. I held his gaze. He seemed to be closing the space between us, which wasnt much really.

My heart rate picked up. He leaned down, his lips barely brushing mine. I wrapped my hand around his neck and began kissing him back. I also had to reach up on my tippy toes to kiss him. In one swift motion, Dimitri took me into his arms and i wrapped my legs around his waist.

He pushed up against the wall and we were having a full on make out session. His hands explored my body and then laid on hip. His hair was soft and his lips were oh my god! They were so soft and delicate but hungry.

We pulled apart for air and i stared at him. Thats when it hit me! I just made out with my teacher. My taken teacher. "No! This is wrong! This is very wrong! Julietta!"I whisper yelled at him. "Youre with her. We cant do this. I am so sorry i shouldnt have-"he cut me off. He set me down and walked out of the shower slamming the door on his way out. I couldnt help but think about that kiss.

It was what i'd always wanted but i couldnt be the girl who took another woman's man. Thats not right. He and I both knew this but he made the move. I shouldnt have taken off my clothes. Ugh. I am so stupid. He probably didnt even want to talk to me again.

After showering I towel dried my hair and walked out of the bathroom. I was wearing a cloth shorts and soft shirt. It seemed like the perfect outfit after what happened. I noticed that everyone except Dimitri was outside. Even Julietta. I walked to the tent and opened it. Dimitri sat there cross legged reading a book.

He looked up as i entered and set the book down. "Dont worry Im just here to put my stuff, Im not gonna bother you or anything," I said hastily. I was about to turn when he pulled me in. I landed on him and i saw that he was smiling. I turned and closed the tent and looked back down at him suspiciously.

His smile dropped. He was all serious mode now. Great. "I am your teacher and you are my student. What happened in the bathroom meant nothing as a matter of fact, it was horrific. I dont ever want to hear about it and i dont want a repeat of it, understood."He said harshly.

I didnt want to admit it right then and there but it hurt. Everything i felt before, the moment that was filled with hope, diminished before my eyes. I just nodded and walked out. I had no idea.

I didnt sleep well that night. The three of us were cooped up in one tent and there wasnt much space. I tossed and turned but couldnt fall asleep. Finally i decided to take a walk. Tomorrow would be the last day of our camping trip and i didnt have much fun really.

I opened the tent and stepped outside. It was cold and i didnt really feel like taking the blanket. I wrapped my arms around my body and began to rub arms hoping to feel warmth. I walked down to the edge and sat down by the lake. I wasnt succeeding it getting that warmth though.

I sighed and looked up at the sky. The moon shone brightly. The stars wers scattered like little glittery dusts in the sky. It was so calming to see the sky. It put my mind at ease to see it all and helped me clear my mind.

Suddenly someone wrapped a coat around me and i looked. Dimitri. "You shouldn't be out here without a coat," he said in that soft accented voice. He didnt seem in the least sleepy. I remembered him asleep when i crawled out of the tent. Nope, i guess he wasnt. I simply nodded and continued staring at the sky.

"Who knew the sky could be so beautiful at night. Its so peaceful and calm out here. With a tinge of coldness but mostly calm," I said. He smiled at me and i didnt honestly expect that.

I was starting to feel sleepy after a while. "Sleeping Beauty needs her rest,"he teased getting up and helping me up. His hand was warm compared to mine. Mine was probably cold. I sighed and got up. We walked back to the tent and settled in.

Tomorrow is when we get back to school. Which means its back to assignments, notes , exams and every other drama you could think of. Sigh