Weird

It has been really crazy, I have been more engrossed in Fred than Harry, I really feel guilty but how can I just walk up to him and tell him is over. I just can't do that to him

I knew that this relationship with Harry wasn't going to work out fine.

She let's out a big sigh she didn't know she was holding back just when Fred came up and wrapped his arms around her shoulders

"What are you thinking about babe"? he asked

"It's nothing really, it's just I have this test coming up and I need to pass, it's my one ticket to getting into College "I partly lied

I haven't exactly told Fred that I'm still dating Harry

I'm such a bitch,I cursed..of course in my head

He turned me to face him,he puts his two hands on my shoulder and says in a rather low tone

"You are gonna kill it, I know you are"

I smiled and nodded

How did I get to become this girl, I'm not this selfish

••••••

The relationship with Fred was going well, not too bad

Though I found out he is cheating,I mean he answers his calls in secrets, if he sees me approaching he would hang up immediately.

Or the day I tried to help him pick up a piece of paper that fell from his pocket, he snatched it from my hand immediately before I got to see the contents of the paper, although I caught a glimpse of a phone number

I didn't say anything to him, he immediately brought up a random topic to clear the state of awkwardness immediately

I mean these are signs of cheating right?,I didn't want to conclude on anything to quickly and besides if he was cheating I probably deserved it because I'm cheating too, I mean I'm dating Harry and him.

I don't have the right to get jealous or anything

Speaking of Harry, he is hardly around ,he is acting really weird recently posting nudes pictures of girls on his social media accounts ,we hardly even talk anymore.

I'm going to make up my mind and tell him the truth, I mean not the whole truth, I'm gonna break up with him, I mean I'm already in love with Fred

I need to set things straight, maybe I can be able to get this guilt of my chest.

••••

Jess's test went well by the way, she was waiting for her admission letter, when it finally came, she didn't get the admission, the programme was cancelled.

She told Fred about it

"So babe, I got the admission letter....

"Woah, that was quick" he said still focusing on his paint

"and uhm...I cleared my throat to get his attention, he turned to look at me

"what is it ?"...he asked sensing that I wasn't so happy

"I didn't get it"I said in a very sad tone

"Oh"he said as turned back to his painting

'Oh, is that all he is got to say? '

Can't believe this guy

I walked closer to him as I bent to him

"are you mad at me? "

"no,Im not mad at you Jessica "he said without even looking at me

"then what is it, I asked hoping this wouldn't lead to a petty fight

"I, I just some rest, that's all"

I felt pain in my heart, can't tell whats up with him lately,first Harry now Fred

Am I that much of a disappointment to him?

I just stood there and watched him leave to get his cigarette and he smokes the life out of it... that's if it has a life after all.