Should I trust him?

She is still in her new relationship with Fred, Jess stepped out of her house to get some snacks down the street when she saw him, Fred with a lady,the lady is almost his age,a little bit young and beautiful too,they also stepped out of his house the same time with her . When Fred caught her staring at him and his lady friend,he quickly snooped back into his house pretending to go and get something,then it occurred to Jess that her intuition was right, he is really keeping side chicks, all the secret texts and calls he has been making are now revealing their selves, well, she didn't want to conclude too fast,she just pretended she didn't see them and continued to go where she was going, she was still walking and trying to wrap everything she had just seen her head when she saw them pass her on top of his motorbike,the lady girl was wrapping her hands around his waist while he drove,just a few inches away from her, he looked back at her with his dark shade, Jessica was almost sure he gave her a wicked smile,she couldn't look at him, she just brought down her head in shame and sharp pain in her heart like someone just stabbed straight into her heart, she couldn't believe what she was seeing as uncontrollable hot tears flowed down her cheeks.

Just after taking her innocence, now this?.

"You are such an asshole Fred" she said with eyes filled with tears and regret

Jess don't rush into conclusions maybe it isn't what it seems

her head is talking again

"I mean what else could it be?, is that his family friend or colleague from the office?

she lets out that sigh and decided to ask him about it when next they meet face to face.

••JESSICA••

After the incidence with the girl on the bike, he hasn't even called, not even a single text from him, whenever I try to call him, something just holds me back

"I mean you can't possibly think of calling that idiot do you now Jessica"....that's Miss Pride in my head speaking again

"Oh just shut up Jessica...wait I'm talking to myself now? "

"Sighs"...Great... just great... you know what, I'm gonna confront him at his house"...she drags herself from the bed and left

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I walked into his appointment with the door left open, I called out his name but there was no answer,I walked towards his room and I just felt like opening the damn door without knocking

"Jess are you sure you know what you are doing" Miss Pride is talking again

I mean it's just Fred's room right?, with guys clothes and stuff.... with maybe a little cigarette I whisper to myself....

I found the confidence to open the door just to find him sleeping so peacefully, he looks way too cute even when he is sleeping, damn you Jess"

you can't possibly wake him up from his sleep just to ask him about some girl you ain't even sure about.

I was about to leave and come back some other time when I head his voice, that voice that sends shivers down my body

"Hey you",,,he says with a smile and soft and croaky voice indicating he was interrupted from his sleep

"Hi",,,sorry I wake you, I was just trying to check on you, didn't meant to disturb, I said with uneasiness screaming on my face

he chuckles and said I should come in.

I sat down beside his bed without even knowing where exactly to start from

"How are you doing?, after an awkward silence fell in the room.

"I'm better now you are here, he said grinning at me

I felt my cheek flush a little

"Fred why haven't you called me since I saw you with that girl and who's she anyway"I finally let out the question that was bugging me as if I've been holding it in since I was born

He shook his head and stays silent for a while before he replies with

"I figured you'd be dead mad at me, so I decided not to act too quickly you know and the lady you saw me with is an old friend"

I stared at him explaining himself with calmness that I never thought I had

"wait an old friend?, why is his old friend wrapping her smiggled fingers around him and what the hell were they doing together in the room

as if I was I was thinking that out loud

"Nothing happened between us Jess, just two old friends talking "

I really want to believe this guy, I mean why shouldn't I believe him, he is looking at me with those eyes that's saying "I'm really serious young lady"

"So you are telling me nothing happened between you and your old friend, you guys were just talking? "I asked trying to sound like I didn't believe what he said

"Jess I would have done some shit with her, she was my nurse back in the days when I had an accident, but I explained to her that things can't be that way you know, Jess you gotta trust okay ?

"should I "I said in my head with the googly eyes I'm giving him

I mean I can't help it... "let's just forget about it okay,I believe you babe"

"wait ,babe? ...you guys doing that shit now?

shut up I said in my head hoping Fred doesn't see the drama going on in this messed up head of mine.