CHAPTER 17: I LIKE YOU SO MUCH

Raj ran behind simran, and was breathing heavily

Raj - bahut ajeeb ho tum

Simran - pata hai ,bhaiya ice cream dena, one scoop mango ,one scoop butterscotch and one scoop chocolate ( she bit her lower lip in excitement )

Raj looked at and adored the way she behaved

Raj - tum itna sab akele khaaogi?

Simran - aapko tho idhar ki ice cream nahi khaani ( looked at Raj and smiled)

Raj - ab aa hi gaye hai tho khaaoga hi na

Simran was about to order for him but Raj stopped her

Raj - share kar sakte hai , itna sab tum khaaogi tho moti ho jaaogi

Simran glared at him angrily

Simran got her ice cream, she started eating without even wasting a second and kept complimenting about the ice cream

Simran - it's so yum , it's delicious , omg yummy

Raj was looking at her, the way she was eating, her corner of the mouth was full with ice cream

Simran saw him looking at her and gave him her ice cream cone

He held it and took one bite of chocolate ice cream

Simran - mai dusri order kardu?

Raj - kyu?

Simran - kyu ki ye meri jhooti hai

Raj - tho kya huwa? it's so delicious

( raj took another bite and bit his lower lip )

Simran blushed, they kept staring at each other

Simran - Raj ice cream pighal jaayegi

Raj gave the ice cream to Simran, and they kept sharing like that

Simran licked her fingers in her mouth after finishing the ice cream, raj kept looking at her, and his mouth started watering

Raj - damn it ,crazy girl( Raj murmured to himself )

Simran didn't hear him and looked at him

Simran- chalo chalte hai late ho raha

Raj - aise chalenge?

Simran looked at him in confusion

Raj - bhaiya tissue paper dena

Raj took the tissue paper and went towards Simran, and started wiping her mouth, she froze for a moment , and kept looking at him lovingly, he cleaned her mouth properly

Raj - ab theek hai , chale ?

Simran was so lost in him , he was so caring and soft towards her

Raj - Simran chale?

Simran - thank you

Raj- my pleasure, ye wo pleasure

Simran - haan haan pata hai, ab chalo

Raj held Simran 's hand tightly and they crossed the road, she looked at him lovingly

Simran - Raj

raj - hmm

Simran - I like you so much

Raj looked at her in shock

Simran looked away from him and blushed

Raj - kya kahaan ?

Raj asked her again to confirm what he heard was not his dream

Simran - kuch nahi, chalte hai bahut late ho raha hai

Simran starting moving fast, Raj followed her, Raj was not sure what he heard was his dream or she actually said it

Raj started the bike and Simran sat comfortably by holding his shoulder, he looked at her from mirror and smiled

Simran was sleepy, and was yawning a lot

Raj - itna khaaogi tho neend tho aayegi hi

Simran - huh, tumne bhi tho khaaya tha

Raj - mujhe nahi pata tha tum itni badi foodie ho, by looking at you I thought bahut kam khaati hogi par tum tho baap re

Simran - KUCH BHI, sirf meetha khaati hoon, zyaada nahi khaati

Raj - do you know cooking ?

Simran - I love cooking and log bhi bolte hai accha khaana banaa leti hoon

Raj - wow, taste karna padega

They kept talking and meanwhile reached at Simran 's house

Simran got down from the bike, Raj looked at her, they were looking at each other without breaking an eye contact , they were not speaking but they eyes spoke a lot

Simran - mai jaau?

Raj - haan?

( Raj was looking at her intensely as if he was waiting for a good bye kiss)

Simran - thank you so much, bye

Raj - bye, good night

Simran - good night

Simran started leaving, Raj kept looking at her, she turned again, waved bye and went inside her house

Raj started the bike and left

SIMRAN'S POV

He dropped me in front of my gate, and kept looking at me intensely, as if his eyes was asking for something more, we kept looking at each other, I immediately thanked him and said bye and went inside

I could sense he was still standing there looking at me from behind , I turned back and waved bye and went inside ,i knocked the door ,our servant opened the door, everyone was asleep so I didn't disturb them and ran upstairs and locked the door of my room, my heart was beating so fast, I went and stood in front of the mirror and looked at my lips, I kept my hand on my lips, I closed my eyes and got the flash backs of his lips touching mine, he didn't kiss, I didn't move, the way we were sitting so close, the way he held my hand as if he was reassuring that he will take care of me like this always , I opened my eyes and looked at myself in mirror, I was always scared of darkness, loud noises, when I used to get scared like this it was not easy for others to calm me down unless and until they call a doctor and he used to give me an injection which made me fall asleep, but today I calmed down so quickly, when he held my hand and touched my trembling lips with his

Yes I had a very traumatic experience in my childhood, I have faced a childhood abuse , I was scared, I was scared of everything since then, I never travelled alone, I never slept in darkness, my family always took special care of me, my friends didn't know about my anxiety attacks except anjali who found out when she stayed at my house 3years back

I had tears in my eyes, how things changed today, how someone who hardly knows me personally made me so comfortable and I trusted him so much, he was taking care of me like a baby, he protected me so much, when he removed his blazer and put it my shoulder, I smiled to myself, I was shivering and he understood it without even me saying about it, I didn't know ye kya feeling hai, why he is go good towards me, I kept thinking while we walk towards the restaurant, he looked at me and smiled, I looked at him in confusion, when we were done with the dinner and everyone left, I could feel he wanted to speak to me, may be he was guilty for touching my lips , may be he felt he scared me more and made me feel uncomfortable, I didn't want him to apologize so I asked him to drop me at my house, he started the bike without saying a word, he started the convo casually to make me feel comfortable, and I immediately apologize, I genuinely felt bad for him, he didn't even watch the movie because of me, he kept taking care of me, he stopped the bike and we both got down, he looked at me in confusion , he kept looking at me and immediately kept his palm on my cheek and wiped my tears

I spoiled your night, I said

IT WAS THE BEST NIGHT OF MY LIFE, Raj said and wiped my tears properly

Which made me blush , I looked at him and he looked away, may be he revealed his inner feelings unknowingly

He started the bike , he asked me about my behaviour today, probably he knew it wasn't normal, I didn't want to share anything with him right now, not because I don't trust him but because I don't share about my trauma with anyone, I don't want them to sympathize with me , I remember how I shouted when I saw an ice cream thela, Raj was so annoyed, he doesn't like roadside food, but I love it, still he fulfilled my wish, and I shared my ice cream with him for the first time, I usually don't share ice cream with my friends too , I don't know why I shared it with him, he wiped my mouth with the tissue, I froze for a moment, his touch made my body cold, he held my hands tightly before crossing the road, he was so caring, so soft towards me, after we crossed the road, I looked at him and said I LIKE YOU SO MUCH

I didn't know why I said this to him , these words came out of my mouth unconsciously, I immediately bit my lower lip, he looked at me in shock, and asked me again may be to confirm what he heard, I tried to cover it up and I was successful

obviously I like him so much because he was different, different from others, so loving so caring, he understands me better then anyone else, but I think I am not ready to give space to someone in my life as of now, I came out of his thoughts and looked at myself in the mirror again, I don't know why I am blushing so much, my cheeks were turning red, I closed my eyes and opened it again , I heard someone knocking my door

Kon hai? - I asked

Tumhari maa, darwaaza kholo - said mom

I opened the door, she came inside and hugged me tightly

kya huwa mumma? I asked

I was so worried about you, are you ok? , mom asked me

Yes mumma, I am fine, I just didn't want to wake you up so I immediately came to my room, I said to her by hugging her again

Ye kiska blazer hai? mom noticed it and I blushed

Wo Raj ka, I forgot to return,I replied to her without looking at her

such a nice guy, mom said and I blushed hard

"Do you need something to eat" , asked mom

"no no I am full, I will change and sleep ", I said goodnight to her and she left

I went to washroom,changed my dress , kept his blazer in my cupboard in the hanger and sat on my bed, and dozed off immediately