Comfort

I've never felt comfortable anywhere. Not at my house, not at my school and not even with my friends. I have zero idea about what real comfort feels like. I feel empty all the time. It feels so cold and just empty. I tried doing everything I could but it still feels so suffocating. I once looked at my chest and found a big hole in it. It was empty as I had expected. I tried doing everything to fill it up but it never worked. I was once in my bath tub and suddenly I felt an emotion I've never felt. It was warm and so familiar, it was like home but the feeling vanished after I exited the tub. I would then spend almost all of my time in the tub but soon the feeling disappeared. I knew I had to do something so I took a leap of faith and jumped in the ocean. There was the feeling I was looking for, the feeling I always craved, the feeling of just vanishing from everyone's sight.