Chapter 22: How do I fix this?

" You should have told me Hads, I told him everything even down to when I had my first kiss with Ken, I bet it was hard for him to have to listen to all of it " I ran a hand through my hair remembering how I told him about my date with Ken and all, he always listened without complaining.

" He asked me not to," Hads replied like she was talking about the weather. " Are you serious right now Hads? How could you not tell me? " I exclaimed, Like why didn't she tell me about it?

" He didn't want you to know Lisa, besides, if I didn't figure it out myself, am not sure he would have told me about it." Hads said

" But why, it's not like I would have done anything to him," I told Hads but I think I would have been more restricted with him, I wouldn't have opened up to him the way I did and maybe that was what he was avoiding.

" It's not like you would have done anything for him either." Hads pointed out and I sighed in response, she was right, what would I have done? I was madly in love with Ken after all.

" He didn't want things to become awkward between you two, he rather just be your friend than have you avoid him or give him cold shoulder, that would be more heartbreaking to him. Anyway, I think he got his hopes up when you broke up with Ken." She explained in a matter-of-fact tone. I couldn't even get angry cause getting angry at her because of this would make me a hypocrite, after all, I just hid something big from Liam and in his case, he hid his feelings from me. " How do I fix this Hads?" I asked as I ran a hand through my hair " I know you're still mad at me too, I can't have you both angry at me Hads. Am sorry I made you feel like I didn't trust you, truth is I trust you and Liam more than I trust myself." I apologised looking at her. This time she smiled broadly and pulled me into a hug. " I stopped being angry a long time ago I was just enjoying you apologise. I should have recorded what you just said so Liam could hear it too" She laughed as she said this, I shook my head and I smiled, the relief I felt was so overwhelming. " Thanks, Hads," I said to her as I hugged her back. " So what will you do about Liam?" She asked after releasing from her embrace. "I don't know"

" How about explaining things to him and telling him who you married?" She suggested

" He doesn't know who I married yet? I thought Abigail already told him." I asked. " Well, I guess she doesn't know too because Liam kept asking about who you married but I insisted he hears it from you," Hads explained with a shrug.

" I dunno Hads, Can you go with me to Liam's place, please? Am dreading the moment." I pleaded

" This one's on you Lis, he's angry at me too."

We went for the rest of our classes and soon we were done for the day, we went to Liam's class to check up on him but his coursemate told us he wasn't in school, we tried his number but his phone was turned off.

I went to the coffee shop after my classes were over but I wasn't myself, How could I be myself after what I just discovered? I couldn't believe Liam was in love with me the whole time and didn't say anything but then what could he have said? I didn't know about it or was it that I chose not to notice? Now that Hads told me about it, it was pretty obvious when I thought about the whole time we've been together. He was always there for me, everyone thought we were dating in high school till I started dating Ken. He deserved someone who would love him back.

I haven't even seen him with any girl ever but I just assumed he didn't want us to meet his girlfriend but then why wouldn't he introduce his girlfriend to us if he had any? plus he was so angry about me dating Ken but I just assumed it was because he didn't like Ken, and even forced him to be friends with Ken and he agreed to it. I bet it must have felt so horrible hearing the one you love to talk about someone else all the time. If only I knew, I felt so stupid " You're so stupid, Melissa"

I left the coffee shop early since I couldn't concentrate on anything, I stood outside the coffee shop contemplating whether or not to go to Liam's place. I felt he need some explanations even though I didn't know if he would listen but I wanted to try, how do I act like I don't know about his feelings now? I stood there for 10 minutes pondering about this before deciding to go and try anyway.

I called for a cab and waited, since I got married to the old man I haven't used my car cause he has insisted Gab could take me to wherever I wanted to go but I wasn't satisfied with that, I loved cars and I especially love driving and if my car was here right now I would have been driving at the highest speed limit I could drive on. ' I could just go to Hads and pick up my car but what if the old man got angry again?' I sighed at the thought, I don't want him angry like the last time. I haven't forgotten he is a womaniser and could rip me off my virginity anytime he chose to. I sighed again, this time longer. ' It can't afford to add any more problems to the ones I already have I thought

I can't even figure out the old man, everyone says he was a womaniser but he doesn't seem that way to me. Was it because he didn't force himself on me? Why can't I still figure out why he married me? I remembered the look in his eyes the previous day as he walked up to me and my heart started racing, I brought my hand to my chest and held it. 'Why does he always make my heart race? It must be because I know what he's capable of doing to me

" Melissa? Melissa?" I turned around immediately to see who has brought me back from where my mind had strayed to.

" Yes Fred, Is something wrong?" He was a fresher who also worked in my coffee shop.

" Nope, I noticed you've been standing there for a while, are you okay ma'am?" He asked concerned.

" Am okay Fred, am just waiting for a cab." I smiled and he nodded and went back inside the coffee shop. The shop was so busy yet since it was just 5 pm, the shop becomes busy by 6 to 8 pm when people closed from work. I stayed in the coffee shop every evening, well, except Sundays.

The cab arrived just then and 30 minutes later I was standing in front of Liam's house. I knocked twice, and after a minute or so he came and opened the door.