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Fate has truly abandoned me

I can only ask myself: Why was I born ? If my life were to encounter painful things like this again and again What will I live for ? Heaven, why have you treated me like this ? Did I do anything wrong in my previous life ? Would you please answer me before I die ?

jukkaland23 · Histoire
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Her past-8

Shuang Zihua lifted himself up and carried the cloth bundle that still had a few fruits left. She continued walking in the direction she had originally intended. Until we almost reached the top of the mountain when the sun was almost setting. She saw an old, impenetrable hut beside the stream. Shuang Zihua stiffened and walked over to see if there was anyone she could ask her about.

 But when she reached the door of the ruined hut She felt that no one had been here for a long time. Because the door was almost falling out. Shuang Zihua sighed and took a look inside and outside the hut. Even though it can't block anything. But inside, there was a room that she could use to stay. Inside there was also an old, torn mattress, pillows, and blankets that she could use to add some warmth. If she washed and dried them a bit, they could be used for many more years.

 Shuang Zihua put the cleaning matter on hold for now. It's dark now. She couldn't do anything. Shuang Zihua, who had one more fruit left, sat down and ate it before going to bed to rest for work tomorrow.

 The next morning, Shuang Zihua slept in her new room. Woke up with the same leg and foot pain as before. She forced herself to take off the shoe that was stuck to the wound on her foot last night. Her feet were now broken from blisters for how long. Today, she decided not to wear shoes. However, there was only one woman here. No matter what she did, no one would criticize her or bully her to cause pain again.

 Shuang Zihua kneaded her small legs for a while before gritting her teeth, got up, picked up the old mattress she had slept on last night and went to clean up by the stream. She seemed to be a little stronger now after a restless night.

 Shuang Zihua slowly cleaned up one thing at a time without rushing. She didn't want to waste too much energy right now. Wait for her to finish drying everything before she goes looking for wild vegetables or fruit to eat. The stream she was in now was deeper than the small stream she had fallen into before climbing the mountain to get here. Shuang Zihua saw quite a few fish swimming. But she had never caught a fish before in her life. So you can only walk around looking for wild vegetables and fruits.

 By the time she finished washing and drying everything, it was almost an hour and a half already. It was considered that the previous owner of the cottage had quite a bit of talent. Even though this place looks dilapidated But there are essential items that a house should have. Here it is as well. Whether it be cooking stoves, pots, jars, pans, kitchen utensils, various crockery, even teapots and teacups are available. She really couldn't imagine what kind of person could live in such a desolate place.

 After drying all the clothes Shuang Zihua picked up a bucket of water and cleaned the inside of the house for half an hour. She sat down and rested shortly after finishing her work. Then he walked to the kitchen to take an old knife and go out to look for food, carrying a ruined basket with him. Wait for her to be stronger first. She would try learning to weave baskets like this. Even though I've never done it. But it wasn't that she couldn't learn on her own.

 Shuang Zihua had been living like this foraging for wild food for the past four months. But today, while she was sitting and eating her fried wild vegetables and shiitake mushrooms. Instead, she vomited as hard as she could. She had been suffering from this bloated feeling for a while now. But she only thought that her body was adjusting to the food from the forest and didn't think too much.

 Now Shuang Zihua began to suspect that she might be pregnant. She had seen Anukang have symptoms like this when she was pregnant with her daughter. At that time, she was just over two years old. But her memory has been good since she can remember. No matter what anyone teaches or does. She remembers it all. The things that those people had hurt her all along were still stuck in her memory as well.

 Shuang Zihua sat and thought that her period had probably disappeared for four months now. This was probably because she had not taken pregnancy prevention pills that day before leaving the palace. But the days have passed for such a long time. She couldn't fix anything anymore. Since this child was born in her womb She would raise him herself as her fate had decreed.

 Shuang Zihua after being sure that she was pregnant She became more careful in doing things. She learned to catch fish by digging holes to trap fish. She didn't know if the previous owner of the house had made it or if this hole was naturally formed. But she noticed that in this small hole by the big stream, there were two fish that stayed there every day she came to see them. So she dug a hole a little bigger than before.

 since then Shuang Zihua had fish for every meal. Even though there were no seasonings here, Shuang Zihua found various wild vegetables and mixed them together until they had a better taste. She didn't know many wild vegetables. Because in the past she had always used ingredients from Juan's kitchen to cook. Since right now she couldn't leave this mountain. So she had to find the properties of various things in the forest by herself.

 Shuang Zihua's stomach enlarged as her pregnancy progressed. Surprisingly, the winter in this mountain is not very cold. But the air was cool and comfortable, and her stomach was starting to feel more uncomfortable. Her old clothes were barely able to fit because they were too small for her stomach. She regretted that there was no needle and thread here. Otherwise, she would probably be able to expand her clothes somewhat.

 Since Shuang Zihua couldn't do anything to the clothes. So she didn't want to think about these things again. If there was anything, she would just use it. Shuang Zihua, counting the days, discovered that she was already six months pregnant. In a few months she will give birth. But here there was no living thing besides her. And where would she go to find a midwife ?

 Shuang Zihua tried to gather more food than usual from that day on. She was afraid that if her belly grew any bigger, there might be an accident that would hurt her child. Shuang Zihua had planned many plans beforehand. Since she couldn't find a midwife She needed to give birth to this child herself. As far as she could remember when Anukang gave birth She saw the servants boil water and prepare lots of clean cloths. She didn't know what these items were prepared for. But since she also had to give birth She would find and prepare it first.

 In the old house after she had lived for more than half a year Shuang Zihua discovered a box hidden inside the bed below. She dragged it out and opened it to find that there was quite a bit of money in it. Inside the box was also a letter written to the person who had the good fortune to find this box. She was even surprised by the contents of the letter. This shows that the original owner intended to give it to someone destined to live here after him.

 The content of the letter did not say what his surname was. But he said that the reason he came to live here was because he lost his entire family to a betrayed friend. He was so upset that he left everything he had and took only this treasure in one box. After all, he lived for almost twenty years. So he decided Return to avenge his family. If he survives, he will come back and live here until his death. But if he doesn't survive This house and his treasure box will be given to those whose destinies are mutual.

 Shuang Zihua almost burst into tears. She really didn't expect that it would be her who found this hut. And she had even found this treasure box. She didn't know why she wanted to look under the bed. Even though she had been here for this long There had never been a day when she had paid any attention to this under the bed before. Or maybe it was because of her child? That's why she wanted to have something that could be used to care for him. So she inspected the hut again in a part she had never seen before.

 Shuang Zihua placed the letter written by the previous benefactor of this hut next to her. She sat and counted all the bills of exchange and taels in the box for a long time before realizing that she was now rich. There were more than 50 bills of exchange worth one thousand taels each, as well as nearly five thousand taels of silver taels. There were also gold pins, gold bracelets, and three pairs of gold earrings.

 Shuang Zihua planned what she could do. She sat and thought in circles for a long time. But in the end, it ended up being that she was pregnant again. She couldn't travel that far to buy necessities. And she still didn't know which city mountain she was in now. She didn't remember anything since she had absentmindedly left the capital back then. She had indeed arrived here by fate, as she had requested that day.