A guide.

Ryuk felt a tight wave of energy surround him, he couldnt control the rapid involuntary contraction of his muscles and fell to the ground swirling in pain.

Ryuks mind...

'I wonder if on that day I just held it in would any of this be happening. If I wasnt born would things have been better off for me. Those stories where the hero gets a mystical device from an immortal, i wonder am I not worth the grace of an immortal, am i not worth the grace of heaven. I wonder when a wolf hunts, do the heavens make the wolf hunt: to suffer by making it kill other beings. I wonder whether the heavens wanted me to suffer and thats why they gave me these thoughts, these emotions, this lust for power and death. What's my reason for wanting power? Is it to survive, to stand atop others, to look at the sky and scoff? what is my reason to kill? Is it to make sure no one can hurt me, is it to make people understand my pain, is it to have pleasure? I wonder do I have the right to want, to lust, to question. If i look to the heavens for an answer, am i allowed to get an answer back? Is there any chain that actually binds me? Do i need a reason to do something as natural as breathing? Do i need a reason to want to live? Do i need someone to say my actions are wrong or not? Do i need the heavens?.'

Ryuk slowly started to regain conciousness, next to him was the Governor a fat man who had chins dancing in the wind with every breath. "Ai, you stupid child. I thought you were smarter than that. When you came all those moons ago, how much brilliance and cunning did you have," the governor upon seeing Ryuk awake spoke, it seemed the governor was tired and his voice didnt even try to hide it. "You knew old man? *cough*," Ryuk struggling to get up asked. "Of course i knew, not only do i have communication networks all over this village, it was easy to see the wounds you had on your body were self inflicted, your mental strength is too low to resist your human responses, no human in their right man could hurt themselves even if you forced yourself to cut your flesh, there would be too much resistance from your body to continue to the point of danger. Didnt you know thats why people hang themselves, its because their body is too scared of death, we might prepare and prepare, but the body is just a shell designed to do things, and death isnt one of them. Anyway are you stupid, you think you're good enough to stop a scroll, with your little bit of skill, luckily you were only slightly off so only a mild energy flow was released and no one died. Though I must say im impressed no other kid could've had the intuition to think that fast, but maybe thats because ive just seen dirt brains in this village," the governor spoke each sentence, each with a lower and lower passion, so enough it just became whispers without any feeling or meaning. "Am I in trouble? I dont think that the state will be able to find too much fault with me, I mean the guilds failure to protect its guild members, means my outburst had provocation, so the punishment can't be too bad, and anyway my natural abilities which i can't control cant be used against me right? So i mean it must just be damages for me to pay right?" Ryuk said hoping and praying thats where it would end. "That would be correct but there are two points that you missed out on. First the Xin family who i accused of being the main culprit, not only because they gave a novice a scroll without any kind of substantial reason, but also because they attacked in a safe zone, but they are claiming that you are the one who actually hurt everyone by not just taking the strike and trying to do something beyond your abilities, that did cause some people to change sides, but its still a majority against them, the second problem is that they are claiming you destroyed a important and valuable scroll and therefore should pay with execution. Although I know from the eye witness reports that its just a Buzz beam a lvl 0 scroll, its true that the village only has a handful of scrolls. Aiii" The governor spoke very angrily and then finally showed a sympathetic smile towards Ryuk, "I tried and defended you, but the Xin family complained to the representative from the capital that I favored you too much and that your misdeeds are much more than these two. Humph, anyway im now not the governor of this village im being relocated, but at least i got them to drop your charges." The governor finally stopped talking stood up went to the window where he was then bathed in moonlight and just stood still. Ryuk felt an unbearable pain in his chest, the governor although not someone always in Ryuks days, the governor still came from time to time to check on Ryuk, the governor even gave Ryuk medicinal pills, and bought pelts for much higher than market price, when Ryuk wanted to ask why, the governor would just say 'i just especially needed this pelt that's why, dont think im a good person.' Ryuk felt close to the governor and whenever the governor would ask something of Ryuk, Ryuk would stop everything and do it for him, Ryuk didnt know but the reason he always tried to go the extra mile for the governor was because he wanted the governors praise, but as stereotypical man such as he was, Ryuk never would let that thought out.

"If you cant become strong, then dont. Live your life without your family always in your mind, I know they were cruel, but that cruelty is nothing in this world. You should be glad, you are free. Isnt what every man and woman searches for freedom, sure the wretched heavens still look down at you and chuckle, but dont mind it, sure the rich might look down at you and snarl but dont mind it, search for a path that brings you joy. Even if they laugh. Even if they call you foolish. Even if they call you a monster or a devil, do whatever it takes to live a life you can look at and be proud of. You are just a kid, you shouldnt have to fight like a dog, but that just shows how amazing you are, you are just a kid, but you can live without the heavens blessing, without a family. You're an amazing kid. So dont look back, keep running for it, your dream that is.

The governor left afterwards. Ryuk was left in his room questioning his resolve, questioning his spirit, questioning his path, but one thing Ryuk knew was that his first master had given him a guide to life, a guide to be able to go past hardship, a guide to be alive.