Sect Leader Position In Trouble

Alex started contemplating what had happened tonight. He had met his sect's top disciple that was supposed to have disappeared and lost him. 

Also for the first time, he had intentionally killed a person. 

He didn't know how to feel about that. He certainly felt bad about killing someone, even going as far as to call it horrible. but there was also a sense of freedom to it as well. 

He always knew that it was inevitable for him to kill someone himself. But, he didn't want to do it— for he knew that killing one person would lead to killing many. 

However, he also knew that it was impossible to survive in this world without the resolve to do what was required, even if it meant killing someone. 

He felt absolutely horrible about killing someone, but he also felt a sense of relief. Now that he was over this hurdle, it wouldn't be hard to gather his resolve to do what needed to be done.