Crude reality

Actuality.

Katte.

So the days went by, sunk in monotony. Such a never ending nightmare, and to think that I believed the story "you will never suffer again." I understood that we had gone through bad times, that not everything was rosy; In this world nothing was, everything has its beginning and if the end was aware of it. But he doesn't expect ours to be so soon, but next to him I forget even my own life. In one of those many days mired in my sadness since he left, I decided to go out and see what was happening with the world; people were the same, I saw very "happy" couples, I wanted to yell at them that this was only the beginning of a fatal end. But come on, not all of us suffer the same misfortunes or at least not in the same way. There are those who in their attempt not to think about the other person take their own lives or there are those who try but do not succeed, what a horror. I do not judge their actions because everyone has a way of loving, but I think they would not be capable of something so drastic and I say I believe because before affirming something you have to be in that situation.

Back home, I went to the supermarket, I didn't want to starve either. I approached the aisle of meats and frozen foods, pretending to be undecided about one or another product. In the background he heard that laugh so familiar to my ears. I thought I was hallucinating, I touched my forehead with the palm of my hand confirming that I had no fever, I turned around to verify that there was no one around me. I grinned stupidly as I realized my attitude. I went to the next hall, I had absolutely nothing at home; I kept looking at the products, I grabbed some and when I raised my face, my chest compressed. I don't know if my heart could be torn apart more, was that possible? My world turned gray, not black and white only gray and there, he was dressed in a way that did not go with his style and a smile looking at her with eyes of love and she returning that love in another look, I observed my reflection in one of the cabinets, he understood now; I looked so ordinary and she ... she looked so good, she dressed perfectly and her hair was beautiful, they both looked perfect.

They walked in the same direction as I was, my heart raced and my legs trembled, lower than them was how I felt at that moment; I thought she would greet me or at least nod in greeting, but she just passed me next to her and she looked at me contemptuously and an arrogant smile was drawn on her lips, I felt humiliated. Didn't it hurt him to do that to me? Or was I never special to him? I had too many projects to finish, and my breakup was only making me look bad, I had never let my personal problems influence my work matters. At work everyone already knew that my relationship with Matt had "expired", but in order not to attend I said as an excuse that I had been with a somewhat "strong" flu for several days, some delivery dates were approaching for some paintings that had not even started. When night came I took a short shower, took a seat in front of several art galleries, some were halfway through and others were only halfway through, I always painted according to how I felt; I just wanted to lie in my bed and sleep, sleep until my pain passed. But that's life, when you grow up, you just have to get used to everything, working for food, working for taxes, working for work, we are slaves of the system when we grow up.

The next day, I went out for a jog praying not to find anything that would ruin my day, I did my shopping and returned home ready to work, of course with the spirit on the floor ... my body reacted to the days that I was without spending a bite, I checked the time and it was already eight at night. Prepare something to eat and having the pictures to be delivered in advance, inform my boss by mail of the advance I had, with the respective photos so that they can send someone to pick them up and deliver them to the buyers, take a seat on the sofa of the living room I turned on the television and passed the channels until I was in one where a somewhat old movie "A Walk to Remember" was playing. Being in the middle of the movie and with tears on my cheeks, I turn everything off and go up to my room, brush my teeth, go to bed without wanting to sleep, all our moments, memories in this room, full of passion and love.

I take my laptop, I go to the post office there is a response from the office, they have already made the deposit for the paintings. There are also several emails of announcements and proposals for "jobs" or trips, I don't know what goes through my mind that I click on one with the words "Do you need to relax? Do you want to get out of the busy world? We have it. Just enter the link at the end of the text ". I did not see the bad, it would just be prying a little. Nor is it as if I was going to accept or something like that, without further clicking and it sent me directly to another page like tourism, several photos of really beautiful places, I had not gone so far and less on vacation. Only to Miami and I didn't even have a break just to work and then I went back without seeing or enjoying anything. "I know you are tired of life so monotonous, the same work, the same routine. We offer you six months, six months in which you will have an unforgettable experience, full of adventures and exotic and unique beauties in the world. The first two months will be in Los Angeles-California with our beautiful warm climate this season you will be staying in one of our best hotels the Hilton Garden-Redondo Beach with excellent service and a very good atmosphere for you to relax, the next two months after The first two We take you from the sun and the tan of California to The hot and burning sun of Phoenix; in Our Rancho Manan-Resort where you will feel at home, a perfect climate for excursions and camping outdoors, for the last two months As beautiful as our Canada-Toronto Country is, we will impress you with our green areas from the neat oval of Queens Park to the four hundred acre High Park and its trails, sports facilities and Zoo. With the excellent attention of the Glace Hotel, from the hottest and most exotic climates you will pass to the cold and beautiful climate of this spectacular city. But to make this proposal more attractive we offer you the last three months for free, we are waiting for you ".

Well, it was a long time away. Although it was not that I was going to neglect my work, it was the only stable thing I had left. I clicked on "Save File". It was not a bad idea to take some time for myself, of course without putting my work aside, I went to my boss's personal email if I wanted her to give me permission, I had to be honest and tell her the truth, I opened my conversation with her and wrote the following. "Dear Patrice, As you must already know, a lot has happened in my life lately, nothing serious, the point is that those things have affected me enough to want to take that vacation that you offered me so long ago. I promise to be responsible. with my work and finish on time with the projects that I still have pending, since I have been with you I have not been bad, and sincerely being in this environment does not give me the inspiration that my works deserve. They have made me a proposal to make a I travel for six months, I cannot inform you where it will be, but rest assured that I will send you the works in good condition and finished. You must bear in mind that it is every year of vacation that I never take that it will not be a vacation. answer, thanks a kiss "

I turned off the laptop, I settled into my bed it felt so empty. Wandering through my memories I fell into the arms of Morpheus.

Hello. How are you doing? Little kisses. By: Maria.H