I dont know what im doing.
Chapter 60
~Zafar~
I signed it, yes…I signed my fathers will. I impulsively choose to do something this stupid to agitate her, I mean, maybe if I took a step back watching her as I built myself, maybe then will she be ready to choose me and nothing else. I never imagined my life like this…I remember during my last year at the boarding school, the little note I wrote in my diary about my future after finding Nura. You see why dreams are meant to stay as dreams sometimes. I don’t know if I’ve just been stupid, maybe blinded by her.
I mean you don’t choose who you love, it’s a natural thing. In life, we are bound to fall for someone who doesn’t feel anything for us. I guess I was a special case having her fall for me as well or so I thought. The both of us or clearly Nura still doesn’t know what love is…clearly she still doesn’t know how it feels like to be in love. I don’t judge but this time I must, why can’t I angry for once. My feelings are justified.