Another Out Brust..

" Seriously.. and you never thought to invite us too.. we also could fun together don't you think so.. " Mia said to us.. when I tell them that Noah will be teach me how to swimming..

" I don't mind if you guys join us.. it's going to be fun.. having swim together fun together like old times.." i tell them..

" And we can also teach you one by one plus we also can play games together sounds like plan don't you think so.." Holly said..

" Actually it's great idea.. we all can spend time together after our exams we don't get time to go anywhere even your birthday we are having big one party.. so we can enjoy here.. " Nathan said.. that's he said right... My birthday is not more like birthday to me anymore.. I feel like it's showing on everyone that who's going to belong to who's.. and our parents showing them everyone and fullfill there promise so best movement for them not for us..

" Yes it's good idea. " Noah said..

" Than my place.. it's best place to learn swim plus enjoy our time.. " Noah said to us.. I don't midn to go his place it's second home for me..

" So lenaa it is okky with you if I can pick you up.. or you will come by yourself mmmm.." it's obvious that I am going to come with her..

" Is that question Mia.. seriously.. of course I am going to come with you.." I tell her.. and than we plan about tomorrow.. and than spend more time with each other.. and than me and Noah left together..

He did drop me to front of my house.. I thank him to drive me and also drop me safely home.. I did had great time with friends..

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Today I am going to learn how to swim.. finally.. I know how Noah always tease me that I can't swim.. than all our friends join him and tease me.. that make me upset that I can't swim.. I use to scred to swimming pool.. I thought I will can't survive it.. so I never try to learn it.. everyone told me that try it once.. but I just can't..

Still now I do scred of it.. but I want to do it.. I can't just let it go think.. If I don't know how to swim than I have to learn it.. and I know my friends and Noah will be there.. so why should I have to scred of them.. it's not that scarey I know.. I will be able to learn it.. and I will fight again water. And will show myself that I can do it.. show my friends that I also can swim..

Mia call me and told me that she is on her way to my House.. so I did pack swiming suite and than grab body lotion with me and other things girls usually. Take with us.. and than pack back walk to downstairs.. I do told mom dad that I am going to Noah's house for swimming.. we firends having hangout..

They do suprise hearing this.. I am not more use to hangout with friend's.. I am kind of girls that stay home watch movie in free time or read books.. not that hangout with firends swiming and all.. but they never said no to me.. they like it when I do that things..

And I do think that I am Changing.. after this my last year I do learn lots of things.. that make me more to stand for myself do things learn things.. which I don't know that I ever try to do it.. but I am doing it.. what sudden happen that I am that changing.. I don't know what.. yeahh I do like me better.. but also little bit bold.. which I don't want to..

I like old me.. who always stay away from crowd.. always in her own life.. study home and friends watch movie's and read lots of books.. no like who punch someone.. and do things that never my Perents thought.. but still I do learn lots of things. Which not evne my friends know that..

Yeah I do know that I am lots of full of surprises with lots of secret.. why I am hiding it it's still I don't know but I know one day when I know it why my father's want me to do things learn things that time I hope I do know that.. why I am like this.. or maybe open up with my friends too..

" Hello girl where you are in day dreaming.." I didn't evne know when Mia come and stood front of me.. I broke my all thought and look at her.. and shake my head.

" It's nothing.. let's go.. or we will be going to be late.." I tell her..

" Yeah let's go.." she said to me..

" Are you excited about it.." she ask me..

" Well I always want to learn it.. but my phobia never make me to do that.. I am still scred but I want to do it.. no matter what.. I want to learn it.." I tell her..

" Don't worry you will be fine.. and plus we all are with you.. you will be learn it.. and you will be swim better than us.. once you learners it once.. " she boosting me.. and that's good thing I always like about her..

" I love you Mia.. " I tell her..

" I love you so much Lena.. " she said.. and we both are our own why to Noah's home.. we did start redio and listing songs.. had fun.. it's seriously make me stress less.. I feel like I am free bired... I am not that boring persona.. I feel like I do like this every time.. enjoy my day.. celebrate with my friend's.. explore things..

" And here we are.." Mia agaib broke my thoughts I am thinking lots of new days..

" Lets go in.. and jump on pool.. I can't wait anymore.." she said. And I laugh at her behaviour..

Like this.. whole day we all had lots of fun... Noah like he said.. he did teach me how to swim.. well it's not that one day training that I can swim in one day.. but yeahh my phobia is gone.. now I can will be stay in swimming pool as much I can..

We do had fun.. we play games.. we tease each other.. we had lots of food.. even Medellin and keyden they are sweethearts.. I do spend time with keyden.. and let me tell you one think.. when Michelle know this that I am having fun here.. he did feel jealous of this..

I am happy that they didn't ask me about my birthday.. and about my plan.. about how I am feeling.. about I am ready or not.. I am happy they just talk about now.. not future or past..

After that Noah started requesting me that he want to drop me.. so I like his kids behaviour I did tease him little than we drop me home.. and I thank him..

My whole day gone fun loving.. but I do feel like this is days I am living my life like never going to be I will fun like this in future..

I did join mom dad and Ari for dinner..

" So how's your day.. had fun.." dad ask me..

" A lot.. I do had lots of fun.. me and my friends are did have lots of fun.. and we do looking for it to do more.. but I guess let's see.. " I tell them.

" Finally your phobia also gone I guess.." mom said to me..

" Yeah finally mom.. and even keyden also join us.. we did cal Michelle and he littrly jealous like we didn't invite him.. we are having fun and all.. such cry bby.. " I tell them..

" You are his favourite girl.. if I was in her place maybe I do act like this.. I mean who don't.. " dad said to me..

" Yeahh right.. it's all about you..  it's always about you.. you are everyone's favourite.. so yeah.. everyone fight for you.. everyone damn loves you.. who don't want to spend time with you tell me huh... " Ari said rudely and leave us..

" What just happened... " Mom said.. and I other hand don't know how to react..

" This is last time am asking you lena.. just tell me what is going on between you two.. stop lying to us.. hiding things.. I don't like it at all.. " dad said to me..

" Dad.. there is nothing to hide anything.. I also don't Know what happening to her.. she did told me that she is not happy with what you guys doing with us.. maybe for this is the reaction of your actions.. we both are good.. but this things Makin us like this.. " I tell him..

" Are you sure.. because I know she never act like this.. she never talk with you ever.. and this is not the reson she is talking with you like this.. " mom said to me..

" Why she will act like this than.. tell me.. " I question them..

" I don't know you tell us.. " dad ask me...

" Well I already told you dad... We both are good.. Nothing happened but you guys feel like something is going on than you tell me.. what you think what is going on between us.. why you think that there is nothing going on.. so tell me.." I littrly yelled at them..

" Lena.." mom said to me..

" What mom..." I said to her..

" Now you are also talking with us like this.. what is going on with you girls.. how can you disrespect us.." she said to her angrily And I do feel bad the way I act with them..

" I am sorry.. I don't mean to talk like you like that.. it's just that I told you guys.. but.. ugh.. anyway.. I am sorry.. it never will be happen again.. sorry again.. and have good night mamma dad..." I told them. And leave them..

I reached in my bedroom.. jump on my bed.. what just happened.. I again lose control.. I do have to control myself.. it's not good think.. I am never like this.. why I am acting like this lately.. I have to be stay clam..

I have to stay clam new days.. the way I am acting like this.. this is not me.. I better stop doing that.. and act like the way I use to be.. and I will do it from now on.. no more disrespect to anyone.. always talk them calmly.. no matter what..

Thinking all that.. when I close my eyes.. when I sleep in deep.. I don't know.. but I guess that what call a night..