THREE MONTHS!

Three months has passed, I wasn't addicted to my phone unlike before, I am being consistent too, slowly conquering my demons. I feel free. Watching TV. I've seen my friend again but I wasn't insecure as before, though I'm still jealous because what he achieved, I realized he sacrifice something too to achieve greatness. To become strong, one must sacrifice itself to become one. For instance, sacrificing your time, enjoyment, and enduring hardship is one of its criteria. The reason, I failed because first I did not manage to balance my enjoyment and goal. Second, I lost sight of my goal, I remember waking up one day and suddenly forgetting what I was supposed to do. Third, no determination, this was actually the reason of my downfall, while my friends have something to fight for, for instance, to fight for justice my friend that you see in the TV, the reason he worked hard because he wants to fight for justice especially to poor people. While my other friends were determined because they want to get acknowledged by their peers and family. While me? I already have the perfect friends, family, and status. I always think that I don't need to work hard because I already have it, until I realized, they can be taken just suddenly. As they say, you will only realize how privilege you are, when all of it were gone. Engaged in my deep thoughts. Losing it all may be a blessing in disguise. Clutching my fists, this was my first time having the determination to improve myself, I thought to myself.