34.Afraid being this happy.

Tenor POV,

"Tenor.." I hear him calling me in a whisper .

"Mhn..?"

"I need to go, it's 6am already."

I don't say anything , holding him even tighter , how did the night end so fast, I still wanna feel him.

I've never felt something like this in my life, to feel that am contented, comfortable,happy, sexually excited, loved , cared about, many more feelings that are running in my system now .

It's even more unbelievable that there's this feeling that tells me that I've found someone I can trust and share everything I've always wanted to with someone .

I didn't feel this feelings around Tayler , I wish I had just met Tyler first so that we wouldn't have to hurt Tayler .

' I love you Tyler, I love you with all I am and am never going to let you get out of my side, you make me feel alive again.' I think as I keep pretending that am still asleep and not hearing his complains because I don't want him to go yet.

" If you keep doing this I won't be coming in your room ever again! " the moment he mentions that , I answer immediately.

" Hey.. did you really have to use that to scare me so that I can let you go?"

" I thought you were sleeping.. so you we're pretending huh, I guess it worked."

" Can you stay just for 3mins , no one is awake at this time."

" It's already 6.41 , nanny is about to wake up"

"She'll be busy, she won't even notice you."

" You stubborn rascal,, seriously, I need to go, 3mins are over." he says trying to get out of my arms but he can't because now am even using my legs to hold him back.

" why are you so strong?"

" Because I work out!"

"Whatever just let me go,, by the way, I don't know the right time to tell you this so am just gonna say it. At Thanksgiving dinner you drunk and then you kinda told your secret."

" What secret?" I ask not caring at all because I don't have secrets, o shit! Did I blutter out that I love him?! I don't think so , Tayler wouldn't have talked to me the next morning.

"You know...abou..."

" Just say it already."

" About your family."

" Why do you sound so worried ,, I don't care about that shit anymore as long as I have you with me."

" Is that so? Well , after that you got so clingy to me and couldn't even let me go back to my room , so I slept here with you but left before you noticed."

" Really?! I don't remember any of that, alcohol doesn't work well with me."

" I guessed, Anyway.. I liked how clingy you were but I sad at the same time because I knew it was because you were drunk."

" You know.. I've never gotten a chance to say this but you are really beautiful , it intoxicates me."

" Beautiful?!! Hey, am a man incase you're forgetting, don't call me that!"

" But even if you're a boy you're still beautiful am not lying, I swear."

" Whatever, just don't call me that."

"Okay fine. Am so happy right now ,you know that?? I've never felt this happiness in my life, it's almost unbelievable. Tyler.."

"Mhm?"

" I love you so much, qI don't even wanna let you go now because I don't want to pretend out there that I don't feel this for you, I just wanna be free with you and sit next you, smile at you whenever I feel like it and no one says a thing."

" We'll have to be patient for that."

" I know but until when then?! "

" Don't stress on that yet, you have me here, now and forever." I don't think at this point I'll be able to pretend that am happy for my sister , she'll have to deal with this because it is what it is .

Turns out Tenor didn't fall for the picture but the person he was talking to . Am sorry sis..

" Am so afraid, when I get too excited everything always collapse from no where and now I know for sure I won't be able to handle Losing y.."

" Hey relax.. I told you, you have me forever and for that reason you have nothing to be afraid of.. don't you trust me?" He ask .

Am honestly afraid, I don't know why, but I can't stop feeling that this is gonna collapse just a few steps ahead and honestly I won't be able to handle any other break down.

" I do." I tell him because honestly he's the only person who my conscience has let me trust.

" That's all you need to do ' trust me' and sit back and relax." he says caressing my cheek.

" Okay"

" Handsome,, so.. handsome." he whispers still caressing my cheek, ah even when I was turned on earlier right now it's on its verge, I wanna kiss him so bad but am afraid my mouth won't taste be pleasing because I've not brushed after waking up, I don't care how his will taste . 

His lips are red and Abit sore from yesterday's heavenly act, the pleasure that I felt is out of this world, and it was just rubbing our hard ons together and we were even still wearing our pajamas but it still had the audacity to feel that good hah.

He is so good and gorgeous, why don't we just stay here forever and look at each other and touch eac....

" Why are you looking at me like that?" He stops my thoughts by asking that.

" Like how ? "

" Like you're so turned on and you have no idea what to do so you wanna eat me up."

" Haha Bingo..! By the way, I have a secret but you have to promise me that you won't laugh , that's when I can only tell you."

" I promise."

" Okay..in the.. store room I was so turned on. And your mom took me in the living room where there were many people, so I kept hiding it here and there until I calmed down."

" Really?! Haha.."

I cover his mouth with my hand to stop him from laughing but he licks it, I take it away because I don't want to be turned on to another level, who knows what I could do.

"You little pervert, you said you won't laugh."

" Okay sorry, but I have a question, when did you realize you have feelings me ? I mean, at first you looked happy with Tayler. "

" Am not so sure , the first day I came , when we were staring at each other.. I don't know, I feel like it was from that day , something like love at first sight because after that encounter I've always been feeling this awkwardness between us . But I was sure am in love with you after the incident in the store room . "

" Mmh.. Well , I guess mine was love at first sight too and also I've been turned on by you twice and I masturbated each time thinking about you." he says looking happy about it , how can he be so shameless.

" What?! Hahah.. tell me you're kidding." I can't believe that , he pleasured himself with my image in his mind, I can't stop laughing.

" Am not kidding, the first time was when you lied about the shower and the second time in the store, I had already taken a shower that morning but I had no choice but to take another one and in the process I did that. "

" You have no idea how badly you've turned me on right now Tyl.." my words stuck as my body tremble when he shove his hand inside my pajamas and hold my member in his hand, he strokes it slowly up and down .

"I've never in my whole life imagined that I'll ever touch this part of a man's body but the moment I remember that it's you am touching, I get so excited that I wanna even lick it . "

He says taking my breath away, I don't utter a word because I can't grasp any, he starts stroking it faster , my breath become so unstable, his hand is so soft and I love how it feels on me , I moan queitly, the pleasure is so unbearable, he goes on and on faster and faster and within next few minutes I cum , calling his name.

After I calm down A bit, I do the same for him though I know am not that good at it as him.

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" Dear, are you awake? Breakfast is ready. Also we're looking for Tyler, I don't know if you have any idea where he could be." we hear nanny's voice outside the door.

"Uh.. no ,I'll be out in a minute." I say almost stuttering.

" Shit..! What now? I told you to let me go earlier , you didn't listen!" he whispers looking worried.

After he stops talking we hear Alexa talking, it seems she's upstairs . I jump out of the bed and clean myself so first , Tyler goes in the bathroom to hide and clean himself too.

Alexa, " We all know he's hurt because of his girlfriend going away and breaking up with him but that doesn't mean he can just go out any time, who knows.. maybe he spent the whole night out , my baby.. he isn't even picking up his phone! God please keep him safe, you know Joe.. if his friends have said they haven't seen him , we should be worried, Alpher says he's not at the park , so where the hell could he be ?"

she's talking non stop, my goodness, she's so worried , she could even get a heart attack, I hear Joe trying to comfort her but it isn't working , " hun.. calm down, am sure where he is.. he's fine. You know our boy.. he can be stubborn and do stupid things but not harmful to him,right?"

I open the door before they knock and meet them , I close it and join in to calm Alex down , assuring her that her son is safe, as we go downstairs I text Tyler and tell him to text his mom and tell her he's fine and he's on his way back.