Chapter Two

I was hurt when I sold myself to a billionaire so I could help my family. This contract degraded my whole being. I felt so low. I know I have nothing to be proud of because I lost everything in me. There is nothing left in me that I can be proud of. Only to Lucian because he was my first. I lost my virginity to him, and I gave myself to him.

Even though I understand, I will not gain anything aside from his help. I know someday, the time will come that our contract will end. And if that happens, I know I am doomed. It is my game over. It is all done for both of us.

Yes. What we have is a contract. This contract is the reason why I am staying by his side. Why he is allowing me to be in his arms. This contract is our string that connecting us both.

I do not know how will I can go back to my past life. Or how will I find myself again because the first day I agreed to this deal, I already lost myself to him? Since at the beginning that I agree with his offer, it changed my life drastically. I almost lost everything in me.

Would you tell me if there are any changes that I will be normal again after our contract? Can someone tell me that everything will be fine after this contract? I hope yes. I hope that I could still build myself after everything that is happening in my life now.

Lucian must felt that I am still awake. He tightened his embrace to me. It somehow calms me.

"What is wrong?" he asked using his hoarse voice, gentleness vibrating in his voice that soothes my broken heart. I know he is looking down at me because I can feel his stares at me, but I refused to meet his eyes. I shook my head without looking at him. It will only add sadness to me. I do not want him to see me cry. There are already so many tears I shed for him. Would my tears stop falling because of him?

He knows that he cannot force me to speak, so he just let me lay properly on his arms, hugging me tightly that I felt security and calmness in his arms. I am glad that he did not force me to say anything because I will only break down if he did. He holds me gently, assuring me that I am safe in his arms. I moved to fit myself comfortably in his arms.

I have no idea what will happen to me once he leaves me. And I cannot imagine my life without him. I can not imagine what will happen to my family if he did not extend his hand to help us. He is my savior, after all. And I am grateful because of that.

The reason why I am beside him may not be appropriate, I still gladly accept it, whatever it takes.

"Sleep now..." he whispered as he planted a soft kiss on my head. Drifting away all the pain I had felt a while ago.

How I wish everything is just as fine as this moment. Just by hugs, everything would be fine for me. That everything is going on between us is fine...

But I know it will never gonna happen.

I was only paid off to do everything to pleased this man.

I was paid by a billionaire whose name is Lucian Antonio, Salcedo Griffin.

I had been paid... To carry the billionaire's baby.

Yes. That is the payment of the things Lucian had, has, and will have done for me. It was not easy. I felt so small when he offered me that deal. But I have no choice but to take it.

I know that there will be girls who will do everything just to exchange positions with me. Being with the man who is every women's ideal type. He's oozing with hotness, and he is so handsome that you cannot take your eyes off him. Well-mannered and well-educated. Plus the fact that he was only 27, but he is a damn billionaire. How can he be so damn rich? But I am not after into the ideal type of a guy. A perfect guy. I just want only a man who will accept me, who will love me despite my dark present.

The question is… Is there a man out there who will accept me despite my situation? Would he take me after my contract with Lucian? I know no one will understand me. Or even if they do, they will not take my past.

My heart aches just by the thought of it. I know that it will be hard for me to meet a man who will accept me.

And the reason why Lucian is good to me is that this billionaire needs something from me. Another tear falls on my eyes. And the realization hits me. I know he is only this extra nice, sweet, and caring because he needs something from me.

I closed my eyes, remembering the reasons why I take the offer and why did I end up...

Carrying the Billionaire's Baby.

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